Chapter Nine Hundred Fifty-Two
1st April 1952
Kyoto, Japan
I hope that you are well when this letter finds you. My brother has told me a great deal about you and I felt that you might be one of the few people who truly understands me…
It was a letter from Kristina, Freddy’s younger sister, though she signed it Kiki. Suga knew how names worked and she found it wonderful that this German Princess did something very similar to what Suga did herself. The letter was a bit scattered and seemed to be stream of consciousness. Suga was a bit shocked when Kiki said that she knew that Suga had named her dog after Tsuda Umeko, the woman who founded the University Suga hoped to attend one day. No one else had picked up on that before now.
When Suga had looked through the photographs that Freddy had sent her, she saw a bespectacled girl with a shy smile and mop of curly hair that resisted every attempt to tame it. Suga could see that Kiki looked a lot like Freddy and his brother Michael, not at all like a whippet that Freddy described. Suga knew that Freddy looked at his younger sister with a great deal of affection, even if he teased her a lot. Suga hardly knew her brothers and her older sisters… Suga couldn’t recall ever meeting her older sisters and not having it be a stiff, formal meeting.
“Princess” Yamada Haru said in greeting interrupting her thoughts. He was possibly the oldest man who Suga had ever met and he had been serving Suga’s family since he was her age, sometime early in the reign of Emperor Meiji, Suga’s great grandfather. These days he raked gravel in the rock garden into an elaborate pattern that was slightly different every day about noon. This was semi-retirement for him as the palace in Kyoto was less demanding than the one in Tokyo that he had managed for decades. Haru had steadfastly refused to retire completely, saying that caring for the gardens gave him purpose. Suga had been told that she needed to treat the gardener with great respect but that hadn’t stopped her from spying on him. Every day, Haru would go about doing his many tasks and supervising the apprentices who studied under his tutelage. The tasks varied with the seasons, but he was never rushed. Everything he did was a deliberate action, even stopping for a few minutes each day to talk to a Princess who he had caught spying on him.
“Master Gardener Yamada” Suga said in reply as she sat down on a bench that was at the edge of the rock garden.
“Here to help me spread the manure” Haru asked.
Suga had to stop herself from giggling over that, which would be undignified.
“No” Suga replied, “I just was thinking about a letter I received.”
“Your German boyfriend again?” Haru asked. He looked with a bit of amusement at Suga’s reaction.
“Friedrich is just a friend” Suga replied.
“Speaking of spreading manure” Haru said as he guided his bamboo rake around a large rock. Suga looked at him crossly.
“His sister wrote me” Suga said, “She says that I am one of the few people who might understand her.”
“Are you?” Haru asked.
“Yes and no” Suga replied, “She’s a younger daughter of a royal family but some of the things about that family are very different.”
“Are you surprised by that” Haru asked.
“No” Suga replied, “I just have a hard time imagining a different sort of life.”
“When I was born Japan was a very different place” Haru said, “And when you are my age it will be even more different. Television or jet airplanes are the latest thing, I remember when it was the first street car in Japan. Right here in Kyoto.”
“Really?” Suga asked.
“Yes, really” Haru replied.
Berlin
It had to be April Fools’ Day of all days. Sarah’s father was well known to be agnostic but there were times when that might have been hard to believe. The other thing was that it was nearly impossible to keep secrets from him. Any unconscious ticks or actions would constantly be going into his head and when he reached his conclusions he wasn’t shy about voicing his opinion on the matter. Sarah’s mother had said that he had known about her attractions long before Sarah had been comfortable with them herself. She also knew how hard it had been for Nessa to break with their father’s expectations, but Nessa had made a choice and followed through on it. Sarah herself had understood how in some respects decisions like that were easy for her sister. For Sarah, things would always be different.
Now, her father, Grand Admiral von Schmidt himself had invited her to lunch. Sarah’s mother had warned Sarah that her father knew that something was going on and to be careful, but she couldn’t keep ducking him forever. When he called, she had just completed today’s rehearsal. In recent years, Sarah had moved from the First Chair Violin to the Conductor’s Lectern. As an accomplished Violinist, Pianist and Composer Sarah’s future was secure but she had woken up one morning and realized that she was entering her mid-thirties. Were professional accomplishments all she wanted from her life? This had led directly to an emotional breakdown that Carla had seen her through, but that had led directly to a conversation about what Sarah really wanted in her life and things had taken a weird turn from there…
Now, a few months later Sarah was seated across the table from her father as she had made sure that every more was carefully considered, and every word was thought about before she said it. The whole meal was excruciating. Finally, the check was brought to the table and in a few minutes, Sarah would be given some respite, time to work this out for herself. She just needed a chance to make a break for the door.
“It must be difficult for you at times” Her father said, “To be so accomplished and still be overshadowed but me and your sister.”
“Completely different circles Poppa” Sarah replied, “Almost every day I meet musicians, artists and playwrights who have never heard of Nessa and only know you as a war hero.”
Sarah’s father just shrugged. “Your mother told me that it’s your life and that it doesn’t reflect on me” He said, “If only that were completely true. People know you are my daughter and while I don’t judge your personal life others might.”
That started alarm bells ringing in Sarah’s head.
“What are you talking about Poppa?” Sarah asked, knowing she had made a mistake the instant she said that.
“I’m just curious about how my lesbian daughter got pregnant?” Her father asked mildly, “Baring a miracle that is, and I doubt that it is the Messiah.”
Sarah at that moment grew angry the flip way her father had said that. He had to have known the whole meal what was going on and had played it out. “What business is that of yours?” Sarah hissed.
“As I said, you reflect on me to a degree” Sarah’s father said, “But as you said, different circles and I don’t see too many ways you could have done it.”
“Oh” Sarah said, that took the wind out of her sails. At least he was understanding of her.
“I take it that the father is completely out of the picture?” Her father asked.
“Yes” Sarah replied, if her father didn’t know who that was then she had no reason to ever tell him.