Chapter One Thousand Six Hundred Seventy-Two
14th January 1965
Jena
Kiki didn’t smoke. Personally, she felt that it was a disgusting habit to have and had never considered starting. Today though, as she sat anxiously it the group discussion, she had no idea what to do with her hands. The others in the group who smoked didn’t have that problem and Kiki envied them for that. The conversation drifted around until it came to the moment that she dreaded the most.
“Do you have anything to say tonight Kristina?” Doctor Holz asked, “We could talk about whatever you want, no one will judge you here.”
Kiki saw that all eyes were on her and wished that she could fall through the floor. For weeks she had listened to the others talk about harrowing experiences and the struggles that they had been having adjusting to life after that. Compared to any of that, her problems seemed incredibly trite.
Did they really want to hear just how inane her life really was?
“My dog has been hiding toys under the sofa in the parlor for months” Kiki said, “Vicky thought that it was funny, I ended up yelling at her and Rauchbier. Neither of them really listened and it is a tossup as to which of them is more aggravating.”
“Who is Vicky?” One of the others asked, “Rauchbier?”
“My little sister and my dog” Kiki replied, “Who I live with. I am also the servant of an elderly calico moggy with whom I share the house.”
There was chuckling around the group.
Then someone repeated a bit of what she had said, “With whom?”
“What is wrong with that?” Kiki asked.
“Nothing really” The man who had said that replied, “Just the way you talk, very polished and proper. How’d you end up in here with the rest of us mugs.”
“Because I was naïve enough to think I was proving something by rejecting privilege and volunteered to go to Korea a couple times.”
That raised a few eyebrows. Everyone else in this room had been of Mexico or Korea and that had been enough for them. Kiki had just admitted that she had gone by her own volition and then had gone back.
“I was a Field Medic and Surgical Assistant posted with the 3rd Marines when they went into the field against the Chinese when they first threatened war” Kiki said, “I went back with the 5th Attack Helicopter Wing leading an FSR team when the shooting started.”
As Kiki watched money was changing hands.
“What is going on?” Kiki asked.
“There was a bet going as to whether or not you were actually in a combat posting.”
“As opposed to what?” Kiki demanded.
“Well, everyone knows sort of what happens to women in order for them to end up in here” One of the men replied and the others started shuffling nervously in their chairs.
The assumptions that they must have been making about her. Kiki didn’t know what was more disturbing, the assumptions or the reasons behind them.
“Thank you, Kristina, but that is enough for today” Doctor Holz said, ending the conversation before it got more uncomfortable.
Tempelhof, Berlin
After all the times that people had looked for a way to hurt Kat, they had clearly lacked imagination. Of course, while the situation that she found herself was like a knife through her heart, it was the sort of thing that was completely unthinkable for most people to even consider unless they were talking in hushed tones in the hopes that this true monster would pass them by. Losing one of her own hurt Kat deeply.
Of the girls who had joined Kat’s makeshift family, Tilde Messerli had always been the healthiest and most mentally balanced despite having been orphaned during the Second World War. Once the mission of playing body double for Gia had ended, she had gone to University and gotten a Diplom in Early Childhood Development and had gone to work in the same State School for Girls that Kat had found her in years earlier. Then a few months earlier, she had been stricken by one of the few things that Kat could not protect her from, Ovarian cancer. She had concealed her illness from Kat and the others to spare them from having to watch her die.
Looking at Tilde’s body, Kat could see what the cancer and the attempts at therapy had done to it. It looked like she had been tortured.
“She should have told me or her sisters” Kat said, “No one should die alone like this.”
“She wasn’t alone” The Oncologist who had been her Doctor said, “There were others in the ward who she was friends with and because we needed to have her on morphine towards the end it was not exactly painful.”
Those were not comforting words for Kat. Someone she had cared about had died a lonely, agonizing death and now she was just a statistic, one of thousands who died like this every single year, forgotten. She would have to inform the rest of the girls about this and the result of that would not be pleasant. All of the other girls had potentially life ending conditions. Ilse had a weak heart, Kris’ bones were brittle as glass, Judita had epilepsy, Asia and Leni both struggled with mental difficulties. All of that was the result of traumatic childhoods or neglect.
It was a horrible intrusive thought, but Kat realized that this would not be the last time that she would stand here identifying a body so that it could be prepared for burial.