Flanders, Low Countries. 2nd of September, 1554.
“It’s a good likeness,” Anne declared behind him, a hand on his shoulder. “Is it not?”
Charles stared at the large painting before him, taller than him and wider than life. It was his family, at least himself, Anne and their children. All of his children painted according to other miniatures and sketches made by Titian, since the Dutch painter had never met Felipe, Catalina, Margarita or María. Or even Anne herself, but Charles twisted his lips, displeased.
“There is something wrong,” he said. “Eduardo’s hair was darker than that, I’m certain.” He pointed at the black strands painted on his youngest son's likeness, the boy painted at the same age he died.
“I think it’s correct,” Anne said. “There is no darker paint, my love. And it’s been nine years since Eduardo came to me. Your memory may be failing.”
“No,” said Charles. “Never.” He couldn’t admit the possibility of forgetting his son’s hair colour, or even anything about it. “The painter is wrong, I’m sure of it.”
“My love, the painting is not the problem,” Anne said. She stroked the back of his head and he turned to look at her face, which remained just as young and healthy as he remembered. “Why do you surround yourself with these paintings? Of myself, of our lost children. And these clocks…” She pointed at all of the clocks that surrounded him, perhaps two dozen of them. Ticking and moving towards an end. “Why do you do this?”
“It’s time,” he murmured. “What I have been waiting for for years has happened. My mother is dead and I may finally rest. To seclude myself away from all the politics and gossip that have plagued me for over thirty years.”
Anne smiled sadly, knowing well that he wouldn’t risk his immortal soul by ending his life earlier. “Once, you told me you’d never abdicate,” she said. “You told me God trusted you to inherit your grandparents’ dominions and rule them until the day of your death.”
“That was before,” said Charles. “Before your death.”
“My death should not signify your end,” she murmured. “I may be dead, but I’m at peace.”
“And that is what I want too,” he said. “Peace under the Spanish sun.” He shook his head. “When our son Juan came of age, I gave him the rules over the Low Countries, then inherited by his son, Archduke Philippe. Now it is time for the Empire and Spain to be given over to their respective heirs as well.”
“Why?” Anne asked. Charles grasped her hands, which were cold, but still soft.
“You were an Empress, my empress,” he said. “The Queen of Queens.” Her black eyes pulled him in, like dark hooks for his soul. Charles could see his own face reflected in her pupils. “Why should I enjoy the honours and riches of the Empire while you’re cold and rotting in your grave?”
“What is this guilt?” she asked. “All this time, all these years and you still blame yourself for my death? For María and Eduardo? Margarita and Juan?”
“It is my fault,” he said. “Margarita and Juan inherited their sickness from me.” Tears burned in his eyes. “María was too weak to be married and Eduardo… If I had paid more attention to him, if I had been a better father, he would still be here.” His son had asked him to come with him, for the two to ride together after the snow fell. But Charles refused. He was too busy and now his son was dead, and he was still alive. “I failed them, just as I failed you.”
“Is that really what you think?” she asked. “We lived the lives God intended for us. It’s no one’s fault and especially not yours.” She smiled, the same gentle smile that he would kill to see again.
“Your kind heart forbids you from seeing the truth,” he said.
Anne looked at him, really looked at him. “If this is your penance, then do so,” she said. “Abdicate and live out the rest of your days in peace, until the time comes for you to be with me.” Her smile grew brighter. “I’m waiting for you.”
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Madrid, Castile. 10th of September, 1554.
Felipe held the paper in his hands, his heart racing deep in his chest. Joana stood beside him, reading in tandem with him, reaching the same conclusion as he did. The idea that this couldn’t be possible and yet, with the flick of a quill, his father had done it. He had transformed everything.
“Can he do this?” Joana asked him. “Abdicate Naples and Sicily like that?” Felipe looked at his wife.
“He can and he did,” he said. “Naples is a papal fiefdom and since the sack, the Pope has done everything my father wished.” He shook his head. “But this means something. My father is proud, he wouldn’t abdicate such a foothold in Italy without a reason.”
“He abdicated the Low Countries and Burgundy for your brother,” Joana said.
“That was different,” said Felipe. “My brother gained the rule as soon as he came of age. Such as it was with me and the regency.” The first regency, that was. After that, it took years for Felipe to gain his father’s trust again. His young self sometimes surprised him with his own stupidity, even if he had intended well. Though María still died and his father still trusted Tavera with the regency. “I’m thirty-one. Why does he make me a king now?”
“Does it matter?” Joana asked. “You’re a king. Let us travel to Naples and see Carlos installed as Duke of Calabria.” Their son was now first in line to Naples and Sicily, his heir apparent where no one save the Lord could see him removed.
“I can’t,” said Felipe, gesturing to the end of the letter, where his father wrote,
It is my command to convoke you on the 25th day of the month of October of this year of the Lord, not giving you the option to refuse or postpone the fulfilment of this will which is an order. On this day, I expect all of you without fail, here by my side. “It is for Fernando and I, surely.”
“What does he want?” Joana asked.
“How could I know?” said Felipe. “What matters is that you will stay here. I’ll give you the regency and command of the country until my return.” He looked away, wondering what his father could possibly want now.