Chapter One Thousand Seven Hundred Six
6th January 1966
Mitte, Berlin
“I am sorry to tell you that there will be no documentary about your boat” Zella said when she got Louis Junior on the phone, “For the time being anyway, my employers will not approve the funding.”
It was strange, Zella didn’t work for the BT with Bart as her supervisor anymore, but she still found herself having to leap the same sorts of hurdles. She was finding that still paying dues was taxing her patience like nothing else.
“You are not missing much” Louis said, “With the harbor iced up this winter we had to take the Windhund out of the water and put her in storage. I’m staying in the Bachelor Officer’s Quarters in Kiel while the crew is aboard the St. Louis.”
“St. Louis?” Zella asked.
“She is an old Ocean Liner that is now an accommodation ship in the harbor that serves as Winter Quarters for the enlisted men” Louis replied, “She smells so badly of dirty laundry and unwashed bodies during the winter that it is said that even the pigs they keep on the deck complain.”
“I see” Zella said, “And what’s this about the Windhund being out of the water? She is what, thirty or forty meters long?”
“Thirty-six meters” Louis replied, “And that is rather small, which is why she is a boat rather than a ship.”
“As unpleasant as you make that sound, it is still better than where ARD wants me to go next” Zella said, “They want me to make a documentary about dairy farming in Silesia and Poland over the next few months, blessed are cheesemakers and all that bullshit.”
“After a few months filming that, you will be an expert on bullshit” Louis replied, “Won’t you?”
“That’s really funny” Zella replied, “I didn’t have to call to tell you what was going on.”
“Perhaps” Louis said, “But that wasn’t why you called.”
Zella waited for Louis to tell her what he was getting at.
“Kiki and Rauchbier” Louis said, “How that went.”
“Kiki told me that it went well” Zella replied, “That your crew loved Rauchbier.”
“She would say that” Louis said, “But that is hardly a complete version of what happened. What she probably left out is that Rauchbier kept going after rats on the pier and every time he caught one, the crew cheered him on while Kiki just looked embarrassed as she had to deal with another dead rat. I told her to kick them off the pier, there is always something around looking for an easy snack.”
“You know how she is though” Zella said, “Kiki wants everything to be perfect in a world that is far from that.”
“Perhaps if she spoke up when she was uncomfortable then it would be easier for her” Louis said.
“That will never happen” Zella replied, “I know that she analyzes everything to death and her internal dialog is always going a thousand kilometers a second, she doesn’t just let anyone in. Not easily anyway.”
“She is one of the most guarded people I know” Louis said, “That cannot be healthy.”
“What she is doing is working for her” Zella said, hoping that what she had just said was true.
Tempelhof, Berlin
The letter from Manfred did arrive. Unfortunately, Kat got to it first and while she didn’t open it, she did keep it from Suse until after they had a conversation. The sort of conversation that Suse would rather face a public flogging than have.
“Sooner or later he is going to come visit you here Suse” Kat said, “And there are a few things you need to understand before that happens.”
“You don’t need to have that sort of talk with me” Suse replied, “I know the rules of this house, no boys above the parlor floor and hands will remain in plain sight at all times.”
“What about when you are not here?” Kat asked mildly, “Have you given any thought to that?”
Suse gave Kat a blank stare. The truth was that she had not considered that.
“I know that you try to be sensible” Kat said, “However, you can be just as impulsive as your mother at times.”
“Meaning what?” Suse asked angrily.
Comparisons to her mother grated on her like few other things.
“It means that you are very likely to give a boyfriend a goodnight kiss and by the time you start thinking clearly again, you will be crawling out of his bed and trying to figure out what happened to your clothes” Kat said, not reacting to Suse’s anger.
“I would never…” Suse started to say as she felt her cheeks start to flush.
“You don’t think that you would” Kat said, “The problem is that I am concerned that your brain might switch off and no thought would be involved.”
“Not when it comes to something as serious as… that” Suse said awkwardly.
“When it comes to fucking you are just another hormonal teenager” Kat said, “And the influence of your mother on top of it. You can see why I am concerned.”
Suse knew that her face must be turning a shade of crimson. She recalled that when she had been twelve, she had heard a classmate describe sex as sticking your finger up someone else’s nose and it wasn’t snot that dripped out afterwards. She had stupidly repeated that joke to her mother and had gotten a vivid lecture about all the ways that was correct and incorrect. It was completely mortifying when Suse had realized that it was her nose in question. That had put her off for a long time.
“Can I have the letter?” Suse asked.
“Yes” Kat said handing her the letter, “But understand that I want you thinking about these things before they become an issue. You are involved with my nephew, so just think of how Helene and Gerta will react if things go wrong.”