Chapter One Thousand Ninety-Two
31st August 1954
Berlin
If this was Doctor Glas’ idea of a joke, then Ilse didn’t find it funny. She had insisted that Ilse walk with her in the Tiergarten along the canal across from the Zoo. It was everything that the Ilse loved if she couldn’t find an excuse to go to a real forest. An oasis of nature in the center of the city, but at the same time it triggered her phobias. That had caused her to spend almost all of her time indoors over the last couple years.
“I want to try something new today, tell me what you are feeling Elisabeth in as much detail as possible” Doctor Glas said as they walked down the foot path that ran parallel to the canal. “Leave nothing out.”
As much as she was reluctant do this, Ilse would have agreed to do almost anything to be free of the paralyzing fear that had afflicted her. Looking up Ilse saw the sky, blue with puffy white clouds.
“I feel like I am suffocating when I am out here like this” Ilse said, “That my heart is about to explode and that my lungs are freezing.”
“You are able to walk with me though?” Doctor Glas asked.
“I’ve told you that I have always loved this place” Ilse said, “But I want to run away from it.”
“You don’t have to answer the question, but if you think back on it, when was the first time you remember feeling the way you do right now?”
Ilse had the memory come unbidden of a vicelike grip on her arm as she was dragged helplessly by someone a lot stronger than she was, an adult, and then bouncing off a wall with enough force to blast the air from her lungs. Ilse shuttered at the memory as she tried not to have another panic attack. Then there was the memory of even more pain in the minutes that followed as she had been beaten for some infraction so minor, she couldn’t remember what it had been.
“You are safe here” Doctor Glas said, “Look around, you are in a beautiful place on a nice summer morning.”
As Ilse tried to bring her breathing back under control, she noticed that Doctor Glas was watching her intently.
“If you can answer this question only if you are comfortable doing so” Doctor Glas said, “How long ago was it?”
“Twenty years, or more. I don’t know” Ilse said, “I was still little.”
“Whatever it was, it shouldn’t have happened” Doctor Glas said, “And do you think you can stop it from having power over you?”
Ilse had absolutely no idea if she ever could.
Grafenwöhr, Bavaria
It was going to be a good day in the vast military reserve, for Kurt anyway. He was sitting in the turret of a brand-new Pzkpfw VII Lynx that was hull down behind a low forested hill and hidden behind netting playing the “enemy” force. There was also an entire Brigade of Panzer Dragoons dug in around the Panzers. When the “allied” force blundered into the prepared defenses, they were going to have a very bad day if Kurt had anything to do with it. The Panzer’s design had been so thoroughly reworked that it was basically a completely new Panzer. There had been jokes flying around about how it was basically a Lynx II, Kurt had a feeling that it was going to stick.
It had taken a few days, but he was still getting used to how the entire turret had been reversed in orientation. A move necessitated by the new 10.5cm main gun. The heaver shell cases had meant that the Loader had needed to be moved from the right side of the turret to the left. Likewise, the PC and the gunner had needed to be moved to the right-hand side of the turret. To Kurt it still felt like the commander’s cupola was on the wrong side.
The other changes were the new more powerful Junkers supercharged diesel engine and the improved optics. One of the most visible changes was the addition of a periscopic sight on the roof of turret for the gunner. It was a British idea that had been borrowed. Not that Kurt minded, he wondered why it hadn’t been done sooner. If that improved the ability of the gunner to do his job so much the better. He remembered his time as a gunner in Spain. Only having a narrow dim gunsight to see out into the world, trying to get onto target based entirely upon what the PC was yelling in your ear.
When Kurt had been ordered to get a proper evaluation of the newest version of the Lynx in the field, he had known that the pretext of it was that the talks to end the war Greco-Turkish war had stalled and suddenly Wunsdorf was concerned about that the near future might include involvement in that war, even though no one with a shred of sense wanted that. He didn’t care though. Kurt just knew that it had finally in the cupola of a Panzer commanding a Regiment which was where he belonged. Even if it wasn’t with his preferred crew. He had been given a crew that was composed of children, the oldest being the loader who had just turned twenty. Worse, they were all in awe of him. They had grown up reading about Kurt Knispel as the legendary Panzer Ace of Aces, mostly in comic books. Oddly, having them fall all over themselves to obey his commands had made getting them to gel as a crew difficult. It had taken a few days, but he gotten them to within screaming distance of his standards.
Watching the road through his binoculars Kurt saw movement on the road exactly a thousand meters away. The “Allied” force presently mostly German with substantial British and Italian elements had been planning that the “Enemy” force was several kilometers from where they were presently dug in and were walking along enjoying a pleasant walk in the woods. The first rule of war was the enemy never followed your plans.
With that Kurt repeatedly keyed the mic on his radio. Everyone around him listening on the radios would have heard the sequence of “pops” that signaled that the attack was to commence…