Chapter One Thousand Nine Hundred Fifty
20th December 1969
Plänterwald, Berlin
With everyone getting ready for the Royal wedding in Prague next week, it seemed like no one had time for Nan. The adults had given her a dress that to wear at the ceremony that looked nice but was incredibly uncomfortable and told her to go find something quiet to do once they had determined that it fit properly. While she had never had difficulty finding things to do in the past, this time was different in that it had come at a time when she had been going through a great deal of personal turmoil.
While Nan’s fears had largely subsided, they had never gone away completely. She was still scared of men she didn’t know and had to fight the urge to run and hide whenever she was in a stressful situation. Lately though, Nan had discovered that she had something new to contend with, something that she couldn’t hide from. Her own identity.
It had been a lesson in school about the Scientific method, Gregor Mendel, and the field of Genetics. About how hereditary traits get passed down through generations and while Mendel’s work had focused on pea plants, Nan couldn’t help but considering how it related to herself. She had always known in the back of her mind that the man she had called Poppa, a monstrous figure had held Nan’s mother captive for years and must have forced himself on her with Nan as the result. Still, Nan’s mother had insisted that no part of her was of him and that once they escaped the farm, she would never say his name again. He wasn’t a part of who Nan was or would ever be. The Science lesson had said in no uncertain terms that it wasn’t that simple and that was something that Nan was going to have to live with.
That simply wasn’t fair, Nan thought to herself as she trooped across the muddy field that would one day be the back garden of the Winter Residence. But she had learned before she could talk that life was seldom fair. It being a Saturday, there wasn’t a whole lot to do and it being the middle of December it was already getting dark. She had never minded going to school after having been kept ignorant deliberately she had wanted to learn about the wider world and had never understood her adoptive sister’s complaints. Instead, today she was at loose ends and her thoughts kept going back to the details she had tried hard to forget. Being at school would be preferable to that.
Louis Ferdinand, the man who Nan had come to think of as her father had told her that her past didn’t have any bearing on her future. How could it not though? With the publication of that book about the Detective who hunted killers there had been a renewed interest in that man who the press had dubbed the “Chicken Farmer” who Nan shared a regrettable hereditary link with. She had been watching television with Nella when show had come on that had speculated about the identity of “Child Six” and what had happened after the experiment had been abruptly ended by Nan’s mother with a mattock. Nan had felt like if she were about to be sick as she had learned the details, especially about what had happened to the other five children and their mothers. How could evil like that not somehow be passed on? Then there was the thing that one of the Psychologists who Lotte took her to said that Nan didn’t think like a child her age should, frustratingly without elaborating what he had meant by that.
When she got near Kiki’s house, Rauchbier rushed out and let out an excited bark when he saw that it was one of his people arriving. He had lived with Nella and Nan while Kiki had been out of the country over the summer. It had been fun to have him along with their dog Weisse as they had explored the vast estate around the Summer Residence in Potsdam with the confluence of rivers and the mysterious military installations on the far side of the forest. After giving Rauchbier a pat and a good scratch, she let him lead Nan to the house. The door was unlocked. Kiki had said that she was always welcome, and Nan couldn’t think of anyone better to talk to about her thoughts.
Finding bread and blackberry jam in the kitchen, Nan helped herself to a slice with the jam. Like always she noticed that Kiki’s pantry always had an odd smell to it, sharp and bitter. Perhaps it was from the contents of the pantry itself, or the boxes on the top shelves with the markings that suggested that they were medical in nature. Nan wasn’t sure. Walking across the common room to the fireplace, the fire had burned down to coals which was why Rauchbier had moved from his favorite sleeping spot on the rug in front of it to his other favorite next to the radiator that heated the common room that made up the ground floor. Oddly, Kiki didn’t seem to be around, so Nan sat down on the couch and enjoyed the solitude until she must have fallen asleep.
The common room was dark when Nan awoke to footsteps coming down the stairs. Kiki led Ben to the front door, where they were talking.
“I told security that you were helping me with my plans for traveling to Prague” Kiki said, “They are expecting you, so they should let you through without too much fuss.”
“Did we do any planning at all?” Ben asked.
“Express train to Prague” Kiki replied, “Hardly difficult.”
Then Nan saw Ben kissing Kiki for a long moment.
“Careful, otherwise we’ll go back upstairs, and you will end up being here all night” Kiki said, “How would we explain it?”
“I wouldn’t have a problem with that” Ben replied, and Kiki laughed softly.
“Good night Ben” Kiki said as he left.
Kiki was humming to herself as she closed the door, she seemed to be in an unusually good mood. That was until she turned on the lights and was startled as she saw Nan laying on the couch. Nan was left with a number of questions, like why Kiki was wearing her robe when she had just had a guest? And what had they been doing upstairs? Kiki alternated between embarrassment and anger as she tried to evade answering those questions.