Somewhere along the Mississippi, 1863, December
Samual reached again towards the fire, letting the sharp tendrils of heat banish the chill from his hand. Without a desk his handwriting was already terrible enough, and Mother never failed to mention when it was too shaky. Finishing the last line and signing it, he took one last careful look at the letter, trying to think if he left anything out. Satisfied, he let the ink dry and folded it into its envelope and pocketed it.
Bundling his pen and writing paper back into his pack, he huddled up and sat so he could take as much of the warmth of the fire as he could. This wasn't his first winter at war, and he'd long before been disabused of the idea of the South always being the balmy, hot, tropical kingdom of cotton, but he still quietly laughed at the many things, little and large, he didn't know just a few years earlier.
He never would've predicted that day in the recruiting office, what felt like eons ago, that his matchbox would be as important a weapon in the campaigns he'd fight as his musket. At the start he didn't quite have the knack for making fires, but with his experience now he could swear he could do it at the bottom of the ocean. And it wasn't just campfires that mudsills like himself were lighting anymore. After Vicksburg, the army had the job of making the whole Mississippi safe from attacks by the rebels. The trouble Sam had was, not every rebel was in a grey coat and flying a treason banner. Every time a southern woman saw his blue uniform and gave him a look of disgust, he wondered, were those two of Forrest's eyes? He nearly broke down the first time he told a family, a woman and two children, that they had so many minutes to pack their bags and get before he torched their home. He didn't know if anybody in the world had hated anything as much as that mother had clearly hated him. But that house had a fine view of the river, and the army had learned that the moment they left that tiny corner of this vast country a band of marauders could pop out of the trees and be given supper as they watched the river traffic, or smuggled from West to East. When the house burned and the fires licked the skin of his face, it was images of strung-up and mutilated Yankees that burned into his memory.
Sam almost jumped out of his skin at the quiet call beside him. "Sir?"
He turned to see a saluting Josiah. A contraband boy that the very depleted regiment picked up a few months earlier. In his most official capacity he was a drummer, but he was always about helping with odd jobs that meant most of the boys had grown to like him. In this rough country tears in uniforms were terminal annoyances, but Josiah liked giving mends, and most appreciated that help.
"Oh. Hello, Josiah. What brings you out here?" This campfire wasn't near the perimeter the army was keeping, so it was pretty safe, but it was a bit on its own. Sam preferred the silence when he was writing his letters.
"They're getting together all the letters, sir, for posting. You got anything?"
"Uh, yes." Sam pulled out the letter, and looked back at Josiah.
"You sit here by the fire for a second."
"I'm alright, sir."
"I can see you shaking, boy, now sit here and get warm."
Slowly, Josiah stepped around, took off his pack, presumably other letters from around the brigade, and sat beside Sam, before rubbing his hands by the fire. Once he settled a bit, Sam offered him the letter and took out his pipe. Once he lit the tobacco, he noticed Josiah was carefully looking at the letter's address.
"Can you read it?"
"Freeport...ill-noh-is?"
"You got the first bit right, and good try, but it's 'Illinois'."
Josiah looked back to the fire, angry in the way boys got when they couldn't do something right.
"Listen, I had to be sat down and forced to read, and get smacked with a ruler if I didn't, to be even that good at it. Many boys your age go to school and come out never bothering to learn, and you're teaching yourself with signs and the backs of letters. You think that Douglass fella learned it all in one day?"
Josiah shook his head, "No, sir."
"No, sir." The two sat watching the fire for a moment, Josiah idly pushing bits of snow in to melt with his boot, Sam puffing at his pipe. Sam thought he couldn't just leave the discussion at that, he'd definitely been on the other side of too many that ended only with that kind of dressing down.
"I'm guessing you have some ambition. That's good for a young man. What will you do when we end the war?"
The boy sheepishly cracked a smile, "Well, it won't be a farm, sir. I think I'll be dead before I pick another bag of cotton."
That he would be dead before that, Sam felt confident, but he would not have dared saying that. This war didn't like sparing boys like Josiah. Of course, what a band of rebel marauders might do to him if he was caught was likely to be even worse than what they'd do to someone like Sam, but even in a stand-up fight it was common for drummers and fifers to get killed. You'd sometimes see in newspapers reports of the traitors murdering drummer boys in their little blue uniforms, and that had infuriated Sam when he heard earliest such stories, but after he first saw the elephant he understood that, in battle, when the volleys of lead started flying, nobody could be kept safe. Not the boys drumming John Brown's Body, and not the boys drumming the Bonnie Blue Flag.
"Then what would it be then? A shop?"
He hesitated. "A tailors. Sir."
"Really? I mean, you do good stitching, I--" Sam stopped, then gave him a smile, "Clever boy, that's why you help out with the uniforms!"
Josiah smiled more fully, clearly feeling encouraged. "In town before the war there was this tailor, and even the apprentice boys had really nice shoes and clothes on, and I always thought 'When I get North, I'll dress at least as good as that every day.'"
"Well, when you establish yourself, I'll need you to make me a suit."
"Thank you, sir."
After another while, Josiah turned again, like he realized something, "Isn't Illinois where Lincoln's from, sir?"
"I saw Lincoln."
Josiah's eyes widened, all quasi-military deference of rank briefly forgotten, "What did he say to you?"
Sam chuckled, "No, no, he was giving a speech. A debate, actually, with a democrat. This was before he was President, but there he showed that even Yankee democrats wanted slavery over the whole nation, just like how they forced it on Kansas."
The boy went quiet. He'd spoken about his old massa only a few times, but it seemed like the man led him to think the North was full of nothing but 'negro-worshippers' who wanted to set his kind loose. A nasty scar on the kid's back was from when Lincoln was elected, and his owner got drunk, asked Josiah if he thought he was good enough to be the Vice-President, and then beat him with a shovel. But he didn't think any Yankee could be as bad as any Dixie boy. He'd also been a soul who had to learn much in this war. Most of the troops liked him enough to back him up, but Sam had seen sometimes in his face how the odd cruel remark could get to him.
"But don't you worry. When they're licked, anybody left who wants slavery here will know to keep it to themselves."
"Thank you, sir. Sir, is it alright asking something?"
"Go ahead."
"Where do you think the army's going to go, what with the Mississippi being taken?"
Another puff from his pipe. "The Sam you need to be asking is a general, not a private. Grant's gotten us to do damn near anything an army could be asked to do, short of storming Hell, so it could be anything. Probably not west, the east is where the people and the farms and the factories really are. So, possibly Alabama."
"Georgia, sir?"
Sam's eyes narrowed. There was something Josiah wasn't saying, and he didn't like his first guess about what it was.
"Do you have family in Georgia, Josiah?"
The boy was mortified at being found out, but struggled to say something.
"Ye-yes, sir. Um, Mammie. Mother. A man from Georgia bought her before the war."
"And your father?"
Josiah was looking up at him, and it was obvious to Sam that whatever the answer was, the boy didn't want to have to say it.
"No, it's alright. You don't need to tell me." said Sam, putting a hand around the boys shoulder.
After a few minutes of silence, Josiah got up off the log. "Uh, I should get these letters sent, sir. Um, thank you, sir." He gave a salute.
Sam returned it. "No problem at all." He saw the boy turn and start walking back into the darkness. "And Josiah?"
"Yes, sir?" the boy turned back.
"Merry Christmas."
They exchanged smiles. "Merry Christmas, sir."
As he walked away, Sam decided he was going to sit until his pipe was finished, then head back. He knew it was going to take too long to get a reply to his letter, it always took too long, but it was around this time that a lot of soldiers, stuck in winter with little to do and feeling especially homesick, would tend to send at least one letter home, if just to tell the folks what they were looking. And now one more letter was going from some damned stretch of the Mississippi up to a house in Freeport, Illinois.
"..I was also wondering, mother, if you could find some of the childrens books I learned to read with. I would very much like to be sent some of them..."