August 1477. Windsor Castle, England.
It was a normal day in the Queen’s confinement, windows shuttered to not allow any light in and trapping them all in suffocating heat. Magdalena spent most of her days only in her nightgown, fanning herself with the help of the ladies that came with her. She was almost permanently covered in sweat, her belly heavy and big, cooking her from the inside like an oven lit up in her stomach.
Thus, when her pains began in the morning, Magdalena felt nothing but relief. It was a strange feeling, even when the women began to move around her in order to prepare everything for her to give birth. She was in pain, of course, but there was also a resolute awareness in her. She was thirty-four, or close enough to it that it practically didn’t matter, and this was her eleventh child. Her last child.
She couldn’t do it anymore. Of this, Magdalena was sure. She was a woman that had lost much. She lost a husband, a father, a mother, brothers and sisters. When George died, she had told her that it was the Lord’s will, but Peggy and Nan were clearly a sign for her to stop. She couldn’t risk her life for the benefit of others, produce a child and heir for a husband that had not shared more than ten words with her since Peggy and Nan… Since they… Magdalena could not do it anymore.
It was late evening when she was ready to push, her eyes burning with exhaustion and need to sleep. Her cousin, Gabrielle the Countess of Cardiff was with her, though Jeanne had stayed in her husband’s earldom of Wiltshire to have her seventh child. Lady Hastings and Lady Richmond were not present, as was Lady Warwick, all three of whom were busy with rearing the children entrusted to their care. The women around her were, save for Gabrielle, almost completely different than when she had Ned, twelve years before. Wide-eyed maidens, without experience in the birthing bed who were there to find husbands for themselves and advance their families in court.
Gabrielle rubbed her forehead gently and Lady Rivers was holding her hand as the midwife knelt between her legs. Magdalena was sitting in the birthing chair, the wife of Sir William Boleyn pulling her hair back as someone else fanned the nape of her neck.
"I can see the head," said the midwife, rubbing her knee. "You're doing great, Your Grace." Magdalena nodded and when her stomach began to cramp again, she began to push. It was practically second nature to her now, knowing when to push and when to stop to take deep breaths in. There was something in her that almost enjoyed it, the last time she would ever do this, as if trying to savor it.
It took an hour, or maybe two, before it ended. Magdalena was so focused on pushing, so unaware of what went on around her that she felt the afterbirth slide out with the baby as well. Pressure eased all around her, the pain ending almost at once and she opened her eyes weakly.
The last time she had produced a child, it was for Nan. Nan was large, and would have grown to be very tall if she lived, everyone said so. Magdalena held her breath as she sagged against the chair, looking up as the midwife rubbed the child's chest.
"It's a boy," Lady Rivers said quietly and Magdalena couldn't think, couldn't feel, because she had realized the baby wasn't crying.
"Come, little one," the midwife said. One of her assistants produced a bowl of warm water and she cleaned the child in it, hoping it would rouse him. "Come on, little one. Breath."
"Where is his cry?" Magdalena whispered. "Why isn't he crying?"
"It's alright, Your Grace," Lady Rivers responded, touching her elbows. "Let's get you to bed."
"No!" Magdalena pushed her away. She took a deep breath, feeling the knot in her throat grow and grow until she could barely think. Her face was flushed with the exertion, the pain, the grief and she looked at the little boy that everyone seemed to tell her was dead. "Let me… Let me hold him, please."
She didn't know why she was saying please. Magdalena was the queen, the wife of their monarch and should have been obeyed without question, but tears bubbled in her eyes and she couldn't do anything but try and hold them back.
The midwife wrapped the child in linen and Magdalena offered her arms to take him in. He was still, quiet and her heart felt like it was breaking into two.
Then, something changed. It was subtle at first, just a slight rush against the cheek she pressed to his forehead. Magdalena first thought it was her own expression, cringing without her command, and ignored it. But there was a cry, first weak, and then, at last, growing stronger. Lungs, frozen in time, thawing and opening up to take the first gulps of breath in. A face, once dead, flush with life.
"Mon Dieu," she heard Gabrielle breath out and Magdalena looked at the boy between her arms, unable to speak. "It's a miracle."
Magdalena didn't hear it. She looked at the boy that cried ferociously now, the tuft of blonde hair that seemed to fan out around him like a great yellow mane. The lion of England.
"Lionel," she whispered. "His name will be Lionel."