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This is a third redux of the Zulu TL that I started, restarted, and then abandoned once I realized that I didn't know jack about where I was going to proceed or how I would go about doing it. My lack of certainty and my inability to properly research the subject led to that project being cancelled, but I decided I love the Zulus too much to let the idea go to waste. So, owing to Bantu badassery and this site's complete lack of African TL's, I'm going for one more try. This, hopefully, will the last one.
The POD is that Shaka Zulu survives the assassination attempt that ended in his death OTL, allowing him to regain his sanity(which he previously lost) and lead the Zulu people to further greatness. This isn't a Zulu-wank, but, owing to better leadership, they will perform far better against the British, Boers, and Portuguese than they did OTL.
Finally, I'm going to begin by reposting my prologue to the TL, which I posted here a month or so earlier. It'll be immediately followed up by an actual update. Keep in mind I'm going to use a bunch of different perspectives when writing my chapters; some are going to be presented in an expository format, while others(like the subsequent prologue) will be written as prose.
So, then, here we go!
Prologue: The Lion Unconquered
The royal kraal at kwaDukuza, Zululand
22 September 1828
Oh spirits, give me release, prayed the king, his head cradled in his hands. Oh spirits, oh mother, oh God of the whites, give me freedom, show me the light, free me, free me, free me!
That last thought he roared out loud and the sound struck out at the darkness of the kraal, filling it with forty years of rage and pain and confusion, echoing from the mud walls and the beaded pillars and hitting him in the ears, making him snarl in pain. His face was beaded with sweat; his eyes were wide and bloodshot; his breathing was short, ragged, painful, and deep in his chest he felt as if his heart were about to explode. “I’m not mad,” he muttered to himself. The kraal seemed unbearably hot. “I’m not mad I’m not mad I’m not mad. Mother, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, it wasn’t my fault…”
He had been going on like this for the past few hours. His bodyguards had stood through it for a while, until the king could bear it no longer and buried his battle-ax in the nearest one’s skull. The other one he had dismissed with a howled curse, and that man had left wordlessly, showing no emotion, and saluting the king as he crawled out of the low door. Had the man failed to do any of those things the king would have killed him as well. He had felt rage before, and hatred. Those things were not unfamiliar to him. But this…this burning feeling, the way his chest wanted to overflow and burst, as if all the men and women he had ever killed were grappling at his heart, seeking to grasp it and rip it out with their hands; this was like nothing he had ever felt before, something that overwhelmed him. His rage he could control; his pain he had made into a weapon. But this…this could not be harnessed, and the only respite, temporary as it was, was in spilling blood.
The slain guardsman had not been removed from the kraal floor. He lay in a pool of blood; his head was a caved-in ruin and his brains had spilled from the remains of his skull. The man had lost control of his bowels at the moment of his death, and in his last throes he had shat his loincloth, greasing the floor with filth. His corpse stank and his blood stank and his excrement stank. Once upon a time, those things would have pleasured the king, made him smile his great white smile, made his eyes gleam as he saw the revulsion of the whites and the terror of his own people. Now they disgusted him, made him want to vomit and flee from the hut and leap into the river and cleanse himself as the current dragged him under and dashed him against the rocks. And at the same time he wanted to leap up with his axe in hand and slaughter everyone in this hovel, and stand up great and tall before his people and order his soldiers to go out and kill, until the world itself was sundered and he was the last living man on earth.
“I am mad,” the king said. The words shocked him, and he jumped to his feet, grabbing his ax and his long shield. The darkness of the kraal faced him, a wall of black that seemed to stretch a thousand miles between him and the low half-circle door, the portal that would lead him out into the cold starlit night, where there was light, where there were his soldiers and his people and his land stretching out before him until the world became the sea, which flowed unhindered until it reached the far-off land of the white men. There lay his birthright, his destiny, the kingdom he had carved from the bare earth with his ax and his spear and his own will, so close, so far, a thousand miles of burning darkness between the king and the thing he desired the most. All he had to do was cross it.
He couldn’t do it. He sank to his knees and exhaled deeply, and his eyes began to sting. The king smashed a fist into the earth, and gritted his teeth until everything poured out at once and water started to come from his eyes, slowly at first, then faster and faster until the king’s body shook with his sorrow and he began to sob like a child.
The king had never cried. He couldn’t cry. Not when the assassin had nearly killed him, and he felt the life seeping from his soul. Not even when his mother died. He had screamed then, yes, screamed and howled until he thought his lungs would burst. He had never bawled like this, not even at the moment of his birth, though he had roared and slapped his midwife across the face. This was crying, weeping, sobbing, where he lost all control and lay against the floor, heedless of the foetid air, of the stink of the dead guardsman, of even the darkness that seemed to drown him; his rage and his guilt and his madness and his hate all seemed to merge into this tide of sorrow that poured from his eyes and made him convulse, that blew away all thought and made him something new, something strange, something human. “I’m sorry,” he said, choking on his own voice. “Mother Nandi, Dingiswayo, Fynn, I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry.”
He had killed so many. His mentor, the old paramount king who had tried to teach him about mercy. His friend, the white doctor from the west, who he had driven away to die in some distant land. His own mother, who he had struck after she had hid his child from him, a bastard being, treachery given human form. He had killed his own mother. The king knew this, had come to terms with this, had told himself that she too was a traitor, that it was the whites and the spirits and his brothers who were all conspiring to bring betrayal into his family and end his life. Did that excuse this, this most horrific of crimes? Matricide, the whites would have called it. He had killed his own mother.
Was this what he had fallen to? His mother, the only woman who he had ever loved back, who had been with him forever, through poverty and hardship, when the tribes of the land would spit on them both and turn them out into the blazing veld to suffer. “Bastard,” they would call him. “Harlot,” they would call his mother. The first he could tolerate, but the second filled him with a rage that was so blinding that upon hearing it he would storm out, find the offender, and beat him until his bones were broken and he was near death. That always would bring out the wrath of the chief, and he would cast them out, telling them never to return. Even though it was always the king’s fault, his mother would never get angry at him. “You are the son of the heavens,” she would tell him. “They are jealous of you, and of me, so they hate us. Someday you will return, and you’ll make them pay for what they have done to us.”
And so he did. The king had apprenticed himself to old Dingiswayo, the lord of the south, and with that great chief’s patronage he had made himself a king in full. He had recruited men and trained them until they became unbeatable on the battlefield. Then he had gone to every tribe that spited his mother, and burned them out of existence. “See, mother,” he cried, as Makedama of the Langeni was raised into the air, screaming as a stake was ripped through his rectum. “This is what I’ve done for you. I’ve made them pay, as you said.” And when he told her of this, she had replied, “I am pleased, my son. I knew you’d make me proud.”
But he hadn’t. He betrayed her as he thought she had betrayed him, and he had killed her. She said so to him as she lay dying in the royal kraal, a hundred miles away. The king had known wounds in battle, felt the cold steel of an assegai blade passing through his flesh and seen his blood fall in ribbons on the ground. But that had hurt more than any spear thrust, and after his mother had passed into the realm of their ancestors he had emerged from the hut and screamed. And then his pain possessed him; he ordered his men to kill without reason, not just men, but women, children, cats, even cattle, mutilating she-cows so that their calves would know what it felt like to lose a mother.
What am I? he thought. What have I done? Why, why, why did I do this?
I am not a man. I am not the great Sigidi, he-who-fights-like-a-million, the conqueror of nations, the Great Bull Elephant. I am not a warrior, nor am I a king. I am Shaka, son of Nandi, and I am a murderer.
There came the sound of shuffling feet and slithering bulk. For a moment Shaka’s eyes widened a fraction; slowly, cautiously, he lifted himself from the ground, and wrapped his fingers around his ax. “Who goes?” he asked, suspicious.
“It is I, my brother,” came a voice from the darkness.
“And I, my brother.” This one was deeper.
“And I, my king,” said the last. His voice quavered, and he sounded as if he would rather be anywhere but here.
My father’s sons. And my chief minister. Shaka almost laughed. Is this how I am to die, killed by traitors? Oh, mother, I was groping in the dark, grasping the wrong people. And now here comes the moment of my death, pierced by spears that come out of the shadows.
“Dingane,” he said. “Mhlangana. Mbopa. To what do I owe this pleasure? What do my most loyal of friends want from me at this hour?”
It was Mbopa who answered him. The minister’s voice shook with fear; his fingers kept running up and down the blade of his assegai, and even through the murky darkness of the hut Shaka could see him straining to keep from pissing himself. “My king…my king. We have a petition to make.”
“The people suffer, my brother.” This was Mhlangana, tall, strong, his voice a low baritone. He edged forward, and his spear twinkled in the gloom. “They have endured much. Executions, torture, terror…it must end, my brother. We will make it end, here, now.”
“We share the same father, nkosi,” Dingane said. His fat bulk shone with sweat, and he licked his lips as he smeared filth onto the tip of his assegai blade. “But even kinslaying is preferable to enduring this. It ends here. For Sigujana, the brother you killed. For Senzangakhona, the father you poisoned.
For Nandi, the mother you murdered.”
“For Nandi,” the three said, and they lunged forward as one.
But Shaka wasn’t there. He twisted aside, and a deathly calm stole over him. He raised his axe and said to his brothers, “There will come a day when I will die, when my sins weigh down on me and I finally answer for my crimes. But it will not be today. Today, my brothers, I will kill one last time. And tomorrow, I will atone for what I have done.”
And then he loosed a battle howl that made Mbopa piss himself, and with a roar of “Namp’ amaZulu!” he attacked his assassins. Mhlangana dodged a swipe of Shaka’s axe and lunged forward with his spear; Shaka leaped into the air so that it only cut his foot, and swung his fist into his brother’s face. Mhlangana fell hard, his nose broken, and Dingane and Mbopa swiveled to face the king. They saw nothing. Black shadows surrounded them, and the heat choked their senses. They were blind and deaf and blood, piss and shit filled the air and choked their nostrils.
Mbopa screamed incoherently and charged into the darkness. He stumbled and cold steel met his throat. He screamed once more, and then there were sounds of butchery. Blood flew through the air; he reeled away and fell, and his head rolled away from the ruin of his neck.
Dingane was alone in the dark. He licked his lips and fell into a fighting crouch; sweat beaded his fat skin, and his stomach churned, making him want to vomit. His eyes scanned this way and that, watching for the slightest movement. A flicker from the right, a man stumbling forward to kill him; he shrieked and lunged with his befouled assegai, slicing through flesh, through blood, through bone. There came a burbling groan and inside Dingane crowed. He had done it! He had killed the tyrant!
But then in his ear came a whisper, “Kinslaying’s a crime, brother, or didn’t you know?” And as Dingane looked to see Mhlangana sliding off the blade of his spear, Shaka’s foot caught his ankle and pulled, bringing him crashing down to the ground. Then his brother was straddling him, sitting on his chest, wrapping his hands around his throat and squeezing with fingers of iron. Dingane sputtered; his eyes became tinged with white, and he began to suffocate. All he could see was Shaka’s face, broad, black, terrifyingly calm, and he pawed at the fingers that dug deep into his gullet, reaching, straining for just a slip of air. “I’m the king,” Dingane heard him say. “And I punish those who break the laws of the land, or did you not know, my brother?”
Dingane grew frantic; he felt himself begin to panic, thrashing, clawing, a wordless airless scream straining to escape from his throat. Shaka’s fingers clamped down and the world twisted before his eyes. His tongue became flaccid in his mouth; his lips dried, and his brain seemed to explode. Black despair at his heart and he grasped weakly at his brother’s face.
And then, as the world turned inside out, the light fled from his eyes and he died.
Shaka felt Dingane’s heartbeat cease, and he rose up quickly, staring at the body, disbelieving. “I killed my mother,” he said to himself, his voice low, distant, faraway. “I killed my father. So, then, why shouldn’t I kill you, my brothers?”
The king stood there, in the stinking, boiling hut, as his brothers rotted on the floor, their blood seeping into the earth of the kraal. Sudden revulsion grasped at him and he recoiled from Dingane’s corpse; he staggered away from the blue-faced body and made for the door of the kraal. As he fled through the darkness, names assaulted him. Dingane, Mhlangana, Mbopa, Dingiswayo, paramount king of the Mtetwas. The smell of death roiled in his nostrils as he remembered them. Zwide, king of the Ndwandwes, Ntombazi, mother of Zwide, Makedama of the Langeni, Sigujana, king of the Zulus. Senzangakhona, king of the Zulus. Nandi, mother of Shaka.
The opening lay a foot before him. With a snarl of disgust, his skin clammy with sweat, his hands washed with blood and pulped flesh, Shaka fell on his hands and knees and scrambled out of the kraal. Cool air washed over him like a kiss. The filth fell from his skin, and he felt the wind blowing out of the south, coming from the sea, touching him, caressing him, washing away the stench that clung to him like a cloak.
Tomorrow, I will atone for what I have done. He had believed those words when he said them. Were they true? Could he erase his sins? Was it even possible, for one who had murdered so many as he? Shaka had built his nations on the skulls of innocents, on the impaled corpses of his enemies, on the smoking ashes of the villages that had denied his mother sanctuary. Perhaps he could rebuild them, restore dignity to his people, make his nation one worth living in.
Shaka stood up and the hut seemed to dissolve behind him. He gazed into the sky; the eastern horizon was tinged with red and gold, and the edge of the night had begun to lighten. Above him stretched starlit darkness, a full white moon falling into the sea as the sun prepared to make its leap into the sky.
And as the new day broke, washing away the impurities of the old, Shaka stepped out into the open and smiled.
The POD is that Shaka Zulu survives the assassination attempt that ended in his death OTL, allowing him to regain his sanity(which he previously lost) and lead the Zulu people to further greatness. This isn't a Zulu-wank, but, owing to better leadership, they will perform far better against the British, Boers, and Portuguese than they did OTL.
Finally, I'm going to begin by reposting my prologue to the TL, which I posted here a month or so earlier. It'll be immediately followed up by an actual update. Keep in mind I'm going to use a bunch of different perspectives when writing my chapters; some are going to be presented in an expository format, while others(like the subsequent prologue) will be written as prose.
So, then, here we go!
Prologue: The Lion Unconquered
The royal kraal at kwaDukuza, Zululand
22 September 1828
Oh spirits, give me release, prayed the king, his head cradled in his hands. Oh spirits, oh mother, oh God of the whites, give me freedom, show me the light, free me, free me, free me!
That last thought he roared out loud and the sound struck out at the darkness of the kraal, filling it with forty years of rage and pain and confusion, echoing from the mud walls and the beaded pillars and hitting him in the ears, making him snarl in pain. His face was beaded with sweat; his eyes were wide and bloodshot; his breathing was short, ragged, painful, and deep in his chest he felt as if his heart were about to explode. “I’m not mad,” he muttered to himself. The kraal seemed unbearably hot. “I’m not mad I’m not mad I’m not mad. Mother, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, it wasn’t my fault…”
He had been going on like this for the past few hours. His bodyguards had stood through it for a while, until the king could bear it no longer and buried his battle-ax in the nearest one’s skull. The other one he had dismissed with a howled curse, and that man had left wordlessly, showing no emotion, and saluting the king as he crawled out of the low door. Had the man failed to do any of those things the king would have killed him as well. He had felt rage before, and hatred. Those things were not unfamiliar to him. But this…this burning feeling, the way his chest wanted to overflow and burst, as if all the men and women he had ever killed were grappling at his heart, seeking to grasp it and rip it out with their hands; this was like nothing he had ever felt before, something that overwhelmed him. His rage he could control; his pain he had made into a weapon. But this…this could not be harnessed, and the only respite, temporary as it was, was in spilling blood.
The slain guardsman had not been removed from the kraal floor. He lay in a pool of blood; his head was a caved-in ruin and his brains had spilled from the remains of his skull. The man had lost control of his bowels at the moment of his death, and in his last throes he had shat his loincloth, greasing the floor with filth. His corpse stank and his blood stank and his excrement stank. Once upon a time, those things would have pleasured the king, made him smile his great white smile, made his eyes gleam as he saw the revulsion of the whites and the terror of his own people. Now they disgusted him, made him want to vomit and flee from the hut and leap into the river and cleanse himself as the current dragged him under and dashed him against the rocks. And at the same time he wanted to leap up with his axe in hand and slaughter everyone in this hovel, and stand up great and tall before his people and order his soldiers to go out and kill, until the world itself was sundered and he was the last living man on earth.
“I am mad,” the king said. The words shocked him, and he jumped to his feet, grabbing his ax and his long shield. The darkness of the kraal faced him, a wall of black that seemed to stretch a thousand miles between him and the low half-circle door, the portal that would lead him out into the cold starlit night, where there was light, where there were his soldiers and his people and his land stretching out before him until the world became the sea, which flowed unhindered until it reached the far-off land of the white men. There lay his birthright, his destiny, the kingdom he had carved from the bare earth with his ax and his spear and his own will, so close, so far, a thousand miles of burning darkness between the king and the thing he desired the most. All he had to do was cross it.
He couldn’t do it. He sank to his knees and exhaled deeply, and his eyes began to sting. The king smashed a fist into the earth, and gritted his teeth until everything poured out at once and water started to come from his eyes, slowly at first, then faster and faster until the king’s body shook with his sorrow and he began to sob like a child.
The king had never cried. He couldn’t cry. Not when the assassin had nearly killed him, and he felt the life seeping from his soul. Not even when his mother died. He had screamed then, yes, screamed and howled until he thought his lungs would burst. He had never bawled like this, not even at the moment of his birth, though he had roared and slapped his midwife across the face. This was crying, weeping, sobbing, where he lost all control and lay against the floor, heedless of the foetid air, of the stink of the dead guardsman, of even the darkness that seemed to drown him; his rage and his guilt and his madness and his hate all seemed to merge into this tide of sorrow that poured from his eyes and made him convulse, that blew away all thought and made him something new, something strange, something human. “I’m sorry,” he said, choking on his own voice. “Mother Nandi, Dingiswayo, Fynn, I’m sorry, I’m so so sorry.”
He had killed so many. His mentor, the old paramount king who had tried to teach him about mercy. His friend, the white doctor from the west, who he had driven away to die in some distant land. His own mother, who he had struck after she had hid his child from him, a bastard being, treachery given human form. He had killed his own mother. The king knew this, had come to terms with this, had told himself that she too was a traitor, that it was the whites and the spirits and his brothers who were all conspiring to bring betrayal into his family and end his life. Did that excuse this, this most horrific of crimes? Matricide, the whites would have called it. He had killed his own mother.
Was this what he had fallen to? His mother, the only woman who he had ever loved back, who had been with him forever, through poverty and hardship, when the tribes of the land would spit on them both and turn them out into the blazing veld to suffer. “Bastard,” they would call him. “Harlot,” they would call his mother. The first he could tolerate, but the second filled him with a rage that was so blinding that upon hearing it he would storm out, find the offender, and beat him until his bones were broken and he was near death. That always would bring out the wrath of the chief, and he would cast them out, telling them never to return. Even though it was always the king’s fault, his mother would never get angry at him. “You are the son of the heavens,” she would tell him. “They are jealous of you, and of me, so they hate us. Someday you will return, and you’ll make them pay for what they have done to us.”
And so he did. The king had apprenticed himself to old Dingiswayo, the lord of the south, and with that great chief’s patronage he had made himself a king in full. He had recruited men and trained them until they became unbeatable on the battlefield. Then he had gone to every tribe that spited his mother, and burned them out of existence. “See, mother,” he cried, as Makedama of the Langeni was raised into the air, screaming as a stake was ripped through his rectum. “This is what I’ve done for you. I’ve made them pay, as you said.” And when he told her of this, she had replied, “I am pleased, my son. I knew you’d make me proud.”
But he hadn’t. He betrayed her as he thought she had betrayed him, and he had killed her. She said so to him as she lay dying in the royal kraal, a hundred miles away. The king had known wounds in battle, felt the cold steel of an assegai blade passing through his flesh and seen his blood fall in ribbons on the ground. But that had hurt more than any spear thrust, and after his mother had passed into the realm of their ancestors he had emerged from the hut and screamed. And then his pain possessed him; he ordered his men to kill without reason, not just men, but women, children, cats, even cattle, mutilating she-cows so that their calves would know what it felt like to lose a mother.
What am I? he thought. What have I done? Why, why, why did I do this?
I am not a man. I am not the great Sigidi, he-who-fights-like-a-million, the conqueror of nations, the Great Bull Elephant. I am not a warrior, nor am I a king. I am Shaka, son of Nandi, and I am a murderer.
There came the sound of shuffling feet and slithering bulk. For a moment Shaka’s eyes widened a fraction; slowly, cautiously, he lifted himself from the ground, and wrapped his fingers around his ax. “Who goes?” he asked, suspicious.
“It is I, my brother,” came a voice from the darkness.
“And I, my brother.” This one was deeper.
“And I, my king,” said the last. His voice quavered, and he sounded as if he would rather be anywhere but here.
My father’s sons. And my chief minister. Shaka almost laughed. Is this how I am to die, killed by traitors? Oh, mother, I was groping in the dark, grasping the wrong people. And now here comes the moment of my death, pierced by spears that come out of the shadows.
“Dingane,” he said. “Mhlangana. Mbopa. To what do I owe this pleasure? What do my most loyal of friends want from me at this hour?”
It was Mbopa who answered him. The minister’s voice shook with fear; his fingers kept running up and down the blade of his assegai, and even through the murky darkness of the hut Shaka could see him straining to keep from pissing himself. “My king…my king. We have a petition to make.”
“The people suffer, my brother.” This was Mhlangana, tall, strong, his voice a low baritone. He edged forward, and his spear twinkled in the gloom. “They have endured much. Executions, torture, terror…it must end, my brother. We will make it end, here, now.”
“We share the same father, nkosi,” Dingane said. His fat bulk shone with sweat, and he licked his lips as he smeared filth onto the tip of his assegai blade. “But even kinslaying is preferable to enduring this. It ends here. For Sigujana, the brother you killed. For Senzangakhona, the father you poisoned.
For Nandi, the mother you murdered.”
“For Nandi,” the three said, and they lunged forward as one.
But Shaka wasn’t there. He twisted aside, and a deathly calm stole over him. He raised his axe and said to his brothers, “There will come a day when I will die, when my sins weigh down on me and I finally answer for my crimes. But it will not be today. Today, my brothers, I will kill one last time. And tomorrow, I will atone for what I have done.”
And then he loosed a battle howl that made Mbopa piss himself, and with a roar of “Namp’ amaZulu!” he attacked his assassins. Mhlangana dodged a swipe of Shaka’s axe and lunged forward with his spear; Shaka leaped into the air so that it only cut his foot, and swung his fist into his brother’s face. Mhlangana fell hard, his nose broken, and Dingane and Mbopa swiveled to face the king. They saw nothing. Black shadows surrounded them, and the heat choked their senses. They were blind and deaf and blood, piss and shit filled the air and choked their nostrils.
Mbopa screamed incoherently and charged into the darkness. He stumbled and cold steel met his throat. He screamed once more, and then there were sounds of butchery. Blood flew through the air; he reeled away and fell, and his head rolled away from the ruin of his neck.
Dingane was alone in the dark. He licked his lips and fell into a fighting crouch; sweat beaded his fat skin, and his stomach churned, making him want to vomit. His eyes scanned this way and that, watching for the slightest movement. A flicker from the right, a man stumbling forward to kill him; he shrieked and lunged with his befouled assegai, slicing through flesh, through blood, through bone. There came a burbling groan and inside Dingane crowed. He had done it! He had killed the tyrant!
But then in his ear came a whisper, “Kinslaying’s a crime, brother, or didn’t you know?” And as Dingane looked to see Mhlangana sliding off the blade of his spear, Shaka’s foot caught his ankle and pulled, bringing him crashing down to the ground. Then his brother was straddling him, sitting on his chest, wrapping his hands around his throat and squeezing with fingers of iron. Dingane sputtered; his eyes became tinged with white, and he began to suffocate. All he could see was Shaka’s face, broad, black, terrifyingly calm, and he pawed at the fingers that dug deep into his gullet, reaching, straining for just a slip of air. “I’m the king,” Dingane heard him say. “And I punish those who break the laws of the land, or did you not know, my brother?”
Dingane grew frantic; he felt himself begin to panic, thrashing, clawing, a wordless airless scream straining to escape from his throat. Shaka’s fingers clamped down and the world twisted before his eyes. His tongue became flaccid in his mouth; his lips dried, and his brain seemed to explode. Black despair at his heart and he grasped weakly at his brother’s face.
And then, as the world turned inside out, the light fled from his eyes and he died.
Shaka felt Dingane’s heartbeat cease, and he rose up quickly, staring at the body, disbelieving. “I killed my mother,” he said to himself, his voice low, distant, faraway. “I killed my father. So, then, why shouldn’t I kill you, my brothers?”
The king stood there, in the stinking, boiling hut, as his brothers rotted on the floor, their blood seeping into the earth of the kraal. Sudden revulsion grasped at him and he recoiled from Dingane’s corpse; he staggered away from the blue-faced body and made for the door of the kraal. As he fled through the darkness, names assaulted him. Dingane, Mhlangana, Mbopa, Dingiswayo, paramount king of the Mtetwas. The smell of death roiled in his nostrils as he remembered them. Zwide, king of the Ndwandwes, Ntombazi, mother of Zwide, Makedama of the Langeni, Sigujana, king of the Zulus. Senzangakhona, king of the Zulus. Nandi, mother of Shaka.
The opening lay a foot before him. With a snarl of disgust, his skin clammy with sweat, his hands washed with blood and pulped flesh, Shaka fell on his hands and knees and scrambled out of the kraal. Cool air washed over him like a kiss. The filth fell from his skin, and he felt the wind blowing out of the south, coming from the sea, touching him, caressing him, washing away the stench that clung to him like a cloak.
Tomorrow, I will atone for what I have done. He had believed those words when he said them. Were they true? Could he erase his sins? Was it even possible, for one who had murdered so many as he? Shaka had built his nations on the skulls of innocents, on the impaled corpses of his enemies, on the smoking ashes of the villages that had denied his mother sanctuary. Perhaps he could rebuild them, restore dignity to his people, make his nation one worth living in.
Shaka stood up and the hut seemed to dissolve behind him. He gazed into the sky; the eastern horizon was tinged with red and gold, and the edge of the night had begun to lighten. Above him stretched starlit darkness, a full white moon falling into the sea as the sun prepared to make its leap into the sky.
And as the new day broke, washing away the impurities of the old, Shaka stepped out into the open and smiled.