We were all so excited the morning we said goodbye to our parents and loaded into convoy of beat-up Plymouths and pickups that would take us to San Juan. I was about to get into one of the cars when I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was Luis smiling at me with that smile of his, telling me that I could ride in the lead truck with him. Before that moment, my Confirmation had been the proudest day of my life. When I climbed into the back of Pepe Alvarez’s pickup behind Luis, Confirmation took second place.
I remember all of us in the pickup staring out the sides, watching the countryside go flashing by. Everyone stared at the beauty of our island, everyone but Luis and Carmen. Luis was staring forward towards the city. That was Luis, always looking ahead to the fight, to the struggle to liberate Puerto Rico from the yanquis. Carmen was looking up at Luis, her eyes full of adoration, her hair flapping wildly in the wind. And in the two of them I saw the strength and the beauty and the future of our island.
The demonstration began at the far eastern end of Calle de la Fortaleza. Never before had I ever seen such a sea of people. Horns, drums, banners, signs, armbands, bandanas, Party flags flying alongside those of Puerto Rico. The noise was unbelievable, the spirit impossible. When we took our steps westward through the still-smoldering streets of San Juan, we were no longer students, shop owners, children, mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers. We were all boricua. All Puerto Rican, united in love for our fatherland.
Somehow, Luis had managed to get our village’s chapter spots towards the head of the demonstration. As we marched onwards singing “La Boriqueña,” I was marching next to Carmen and asked her where we were going. She smiled down at me and my heart melted and she told me that we were marching to the Plaza de Armas to hear a speech written by El Maestro, Pedro Albizu Campos, from his prison cell. “Luis says that it will be like a second Grito de Jayuya,” Carmen said to me with starry eyes. “A cry of liberation, not just for El Vate, but for all of Puerto Rico.”
When we reached the Plaza de Armas, there was no speaker’s platform. No banners, no flag-waving supporters of our march for freedom. Awaiting us instead was a company of yanqui Marines, the sun glinting off of their bayonets. The words of “La Boriqueña” vanished. The cries for freedom died with them. The march ground to a halt. But for the wind and the gurgling of the fountain, the plaza was like a tomb.
Slowly, staring at soldiers, we moved forwards. Slowly, the words of “La Boriqueña” once more filled the air. Slowly, we felt our strength blaze through the cloud of darkness and fill us once more. There was a snap! and the Marines brought their rifles up. A yanqui major stepped out from the lines of soldiers. There was a megaphone in his hands. “I order you to disperse and return to your homes!” He said it once in English. He did not say it in Spanish. Only once. In English. None of us moved. The major lowered his megaphone and disappeared.
I cannot remember whether I heard the order to fire. I remember very few things after the first wave of death slammed into our ranks. There was screaming, like animals trapped in a burning building. The river of protestors became a maelstrom of fear. As the tide swept me away from the Plaza de Armas, from the slaughter, I saw Carmen lying on the ground. I looked into her eyes, like mirrors, staring up at the sky, her face still filled with a beauty and a surprise that kept my eyes away from the bloody hole in her chest. My eyes filled with tears and I could taste blood in the air, could feel it flowing on the cobblestones under my feet. And always there was the constant, unceasing roar of the guns.
—From Yo Soy Boricua, by Pablo Lizar