Chapter One Thousand Two Hundred Seventy-Six
21st April 1958
Berlin
Douglas had predicted that she would not last three days. In the end Kat made it a week and she wasn’t the one who brought it to a head. Though Kat suspected that it was because she had only gone to see Charlotte three times and only for a few hours.
“If you don’t want to be here, you ought to leave” Charlotte said.
“Excuse me?” Kat asked.
“I’m not stupid Katherine” Charlotte replied, “Some of the girls I worked with in Vienna are acting just like you are when someone tells them to do something they don’t want to do, and they don’t feel they can say no.”
“I don’t understand the reference” Kat said.
“Your file in juvenile records made for fascinating reading” Charlotte said, “If you are what they will be like in twenty years, I don’t know if I should feel encouraged or despair.”
Kat wondered where the copy of her records that Charlotte had read had come from. She was certain that she had found and burnt every copy several years earlier. Evidently, she had missed one. The last thing she wanted was some future historian trying to piece together her motivations, giving too much weight to certain things and getting the wrong impression about what drove her.
“You are right” Kat said, “I don’t want to be here. The relationship I had with Kira wasn’t healthy and I don’t want to go through that again.”
“That wasn’t how Louis described how things were between you and her” Charlotte said. Kat noticed that she didn’t say Kira’s name. Whoever said that ghosts didn’t haunt the living didn’t know what they were talking about. The specter of the Empress seemed to hang over everything that they did.
“Our relationship wasn’t one of equals” Kat replied, “I owed almost everything to Kira and while she didn’t leverage that against me, it was always there. She was also extremely good at maneuvering people into doing exactly what she wanted.”
“You are worried that I will do that to you?” Charlotte asked.
“While I doubt you will want to do things like that, I think your position mandates that you must be completely ruthless at times” Kat said, wondering if she was saying entirely too much. “My experience is that Kings and Queens always give with one hand, take with the other.”
“Yet you have allowed Kristina to live with you” Charlotte observed.
“I’ve seen her trying to grow as a person, far beyond what would be expected of someone of her birth” Kat replied, “That was the thing that caused her to come to blows with her mother and it is something that I think should be encouraged.”
“Thank you for your honesty” Charlotte said, “Did I tell you why I became a Social Worker?”
“I’m sorry, you didn’t”
“You’ll be pleasantly surprised to learn that Kristina isn’t the only one who felt that she needed to be more than was expected.”
That was an angle that Kat hadn’t considered.
“And what exactly was it that your former Mistress asked of you that was taking too much?” Charlotte asked.
Kat had to think about that. There were the times that Kira had disregarded Kat’s health, how that had almost caused her to resign from everything and move to Canada when she had been recovering from a bleeding ulcer. None of that had been the breaking point though. It had been the year long period of time between when Kiki had hit her mother after daring to stand up to her, getting slapped across the face for it and Gia going to rescue Asia. Kat had tried to reason with Kira several times, and Kira had been having none of it. In the months since then, When the Empress had threatened to dismiss Kat from her service if she said anything else in defense of Kiki and Gia it would have been the end of their relationship even if Kira hadn’t suffered a heart attack.
Then as Kira had been laying on a bed in the hospital with her heart failing, she had been unable to let her anger go. Instead of making things right she had made sure that her spite was the last thing that her daughter and cousin received from her. Watching that, all Kat felt was pity for Kira had allowed herself to become. How to explain that to Charlotte though?
“She stopped listening to me” Kat replied, “She also expected me to follow her in condemning people who I love, who were not deserving of the treatment they received from her.”
“Jehane Alexandra Thomas-Romanova?” Charlotte asked.
“Kiki as well” Kat replied, “When they did some things that she didn’t want, Kira treated it like a personal betrayal.”
“Kiki?” Charlotte asked.
“Princess Kristina” Kat said, “It is what those closest to her have called her since she was a toddler.”
“I was unaware of that” Charlotte said, “Anything else like that?”
“In Russia, everyone calls Jehane Sasha” Kat replied, “Here, among her friends and family she’s called Gia because Gianna was her assumed name for several years.”
“You really did help her fake her death?” Charlotte asked.
“It was a matter of life and death” Kat replied, “The NKVD wasn’t going to stop trying to kill her so long as they knew she was alive. I didn’t see any other way out for her.”
“That was an extraordinary step” Charlotte said, “You were what? Eighteen or nineteen when you did that?”
Kat loathed the thought of Court politics and getting pulled back into it. Kat also knew that Charlotte wasn’t exactly equipped to enter that world, Charlotte seemed like she was too nice. This was exactly why Louis had asked her to get involved.