Vixagoras
Banned
It could certainly be said that Maryām was excited in the days leading up to her delivery, though not exactly for the reasons that immediately come to mind for most expecting parents. She was more than overjoyed at the prospect of being a mother, as she felt that her entire life had been leading her to the moment of birth, but her pregnancy with her first child had been... difficult. There had been a few scares in the last few months after she had been knocked over twice by sheep, and she had started bleeding at random while hunched over the fire trying to cook just weeks before. Her mother-in-law, Rāḥēl, had been keeping her confined to the house for the passed three days for fear that she might miscarry. As if it did any good anyways, since she could never sleep because of the baby's constant kicking. “The girl can't seem to stay on her feet.” She had heard her gossiping to her friends, “Which, well... is fine, really. She fought me when I put her to bed, but... whether she likes it or not, I will have a grandchild at the end of all of this.” Just thinking about the way the other women laughed with her made Maryām feel embarrassed, and so she had promised herself that she was not going to scream the way her sister-in-law Åsənaṯ had. When she had made the promise allowed to her gaunt-faced mother-in-law, she smiled at her condescendingly and told her simply, “That's not possible, my dear.”
As bitter as a young Maryām might have felt toward her mother-in-law however, all of that seemed to dissipate on the day of her labor. It was a cold spring morning, so cold that she had awoken being able to see her own breath. The sound of her husband Yosef at work was what had ended her sleep, as was the norm for her daily routine over the passed three days. Every day it was something different. He might have been fixing something, perhaps a chair or a wheelbarrow, or pounding out fibers for rope, or stripping branches for fencing. Sometimes he and his father Yaqob made finer items, like chairs, tables, and even doors. Others, their wares were crude. Although the overwhelming majority of the time, they repaired things that other people had broken. Today, he was actually outside chopping wood to help in the construction of a neighbor's house, though the upper level of the house where the family was supposed to eat and sleep had become overcrowded with all manner of objects in need of fixing. Her precious mother-in-law could be heard outside grinding wheat between rocks... something Maryām normally helped her do, but was, at least per the woman's insistence, something she was now not able to do.
Not wanting to hear Rāḥēl's incessant complaining about having to grind all the wheat by herself, Maryām, for the first time in days, stepped over a wheel and a stool to get out of bed, and started her way down the latter to the lower level of the house. Her husband immediately noticed, and told her to get back in bed, while Maryām pleaded with him to be quiet. Rāḥēl however, had the ears of a rabbit, and could be heard outside telling her daughter-in-law to get back in bed. “Nothing is going to happen! Please, stop it. I'm just going to come out and help you for awhile.”
“No you are not!” She heard her mother-in-law directly behind her, “Get back into bed, now! I won't hear this nonsense.”
“Mother, please...”
“No!” Rāḥēl hissed, “Get back into bed! I won't have you compromising my grandson for your pride. Go... go on!”
“You don't even know if it's a boy...” Maryām sighed, starting back up the latter.
“Oh I know... believe dear, it's a boy.” Rāḥēl said as she pushed her daughter-in-law up the wooden ladder.
“Indeed.”
“Oh I know. I've been able to accurately predict the sex of babies for years now. With girls you can't expect a belly like that, or the same kind of kicking. Not that girls don't kick. Åsənaṯ kicked me so hard once I had to sit down, and I'm sure you kicked your mother too. But boys... boys keep you up for days at a time, and they always seem to sit in just the wrong place too. You know it's a boy when he gives you that kind of trouble. Everyone knows boys are trouble when they're young. Everyone. But if you can get them to manhood, their demeanor calms down considerably. That's why wars come to an end. If God had made Hawwā before Adam, and tasked her with the responsibilities that he tasked him with... well, there would have been no Qáyin and Hebel, that's for sure.”
What did that even mean? No matter. Rāḥēl was one of the few women in the community that could actually read, and if you let her, which most people did, she could talk for hours. Sometimes Maryām thought it was delightful, seeing her mother-in-law as a role model, and others she couldn't stand it. It depended on the context, but at present, she was doing her best to tune her out until she felt a contraction in her abdomen. She had had contractions the other day that had subsided, which initially gave her pause, but this one was very different. The pain seemed to be shooting down to her thighs.
“Mom, wait...” She said.
“Wait for what, come on now!”
“I feel something.”
“Let me see!” Rāḥēl stuck her head up Maryām's skirt to have a look.
Just as she did, Maryām felt something pop inside her, something that had popped loud enough to be audible to everyone in the house.
“What – ” Yosef was cut off by the sound and sight of what was happening.
Maryām immediately felt a flow coming out from between her legs that was unlike anything she was used to feeling. It wasn't like urinating, because in that case there was some control over it. This was different. This wouldn't stop, even if she wanted it to, and it was accompanied by the painful sensations in her abdomens and thighs that almost made her fall off the ladder, especially when Rāḥēl jerked her head out from beneath her daughter-in-law's skirt to avoid having her head soaked.
“Right. When nobody's here...” She complained, “Yaqob!”
It took a moment for Maryām's father-in-law to make it into the room, but once he did, he found himself being ordered to clear the goats out, bring a clean cloth and help her mother-in-law walk her around the room while Yosef ran outside to fetch his sister, the midwife, and Maryām's mother, who would all make their appearances at different times. Åsənaṯ came first to relieve Yaqob, who promptly made his exit on her arrival. In the presence of childbirth is no place for a man, after all. Åsənaṯ let her mother know that she had dispatched her husband and her brother Qlofa to find Maryām's parents while Yosef found Yôḵāḇeḏ, the midwife. Maryām's mother, Riḇqā, was next to arrive, tears of joy filling her lined eyes for the joyous moment of her first grandchild's birth. After all, Maryām was the last surviving child of her family after her two older brothers had died as children, meaning that she was her parents' only chance at a continuation of their family.
By the time Yôḵāḇeḏ actually made her appearance, the process was half over. Rāḥēl and Riḇqā walked their daughter around the room constantly over the course of the next four hours, stroking her hair and instructing her on her every movement. “I told you that you'd scream.” Rāḥēl whispered to her daughter-in-law, who was forced to laugh before another shot of pain rushed through her body. When the midwife actually arrived, she seemed very nonchalant about her tardiness.
“Nice of you to come.” Rāḥēl said to her when her silhouette appeared in the plaster doorway.
“I'm glad to be here.” Yôḵāḇeḏ said, sternly, “Though it seems you girls have everything under control. Where are we in the process?”
“The baby hasn't begun to crown yet...”
“Let's get that done then...” She rolled her sleeves back, "Shall we move her to the loft? The floor is cleaner, I wager."
"It's also full." Rāḥēl said through tightly clenched teeth.
"Right... oh well. Here is fine." Yôḵāḇeḏ said as she knelt down to lift Maryām's skirt.
Once the baby had actually begun to crown however, Maryām couldn't help but scream the foulest curse words in her vocabulary. She had never felt pain like this before, and she thought that she might be split in two up the middle from it. She was terribly afraid, and the only thing she could think to do once the fear had taken her was call her husband's name. The pain was so intense however that she could barely muster the sounds, instead uttering more a tearful murmur. Her husband was quick to respond, rushing into the room only to be pulled out by his father and pushed by Yôḵāḇeḏ while her mother and mother-in-law gasped at the sight of the curly black hair of their infant grandchild as it slowly began to emerge.
“How do you know which hair is which?” Maryām screamed, only to be laughed at by the other women around her.
What came after the baby's head had crowned however, was no laughing matter. Where the four women helping her with the birthing process had previously been speaking loudly, offering words of encouragement, laughing, and smiling, their demeanor changed at a moment's notice, leaving a 15 year old Maryām confused.
“We have to get it out, quickly.” Yôḵāḇeḏ said quietly before turning her eyes to Maryām's, “I'm going to count with you now, and on the count of three each time I need you to push as hard as you can as fast as you can. Can you do that for me, dear?”
Maryām nodded, and when the time came she did as she was told, and without any further trouble, she felt a release of pressure as she saw her child being pulled from her loins by the midwife's hands. For a moment her mind swam, and a feeling came over her that she had difficulty putting into words. She felt anxious, yet relieved. Disgusted, and yet in awe. The miracle of life lay bare and bloody before her, a tiny helpless bundle of purple flesh gleaming wetly with the fluid of her body. She saw the parts of a boy, and she was filled with joy. She had never felt love like she was feeling now. She could actually say that it was the first time she had ever been in love to begin with. Her marriage to her husband after all had been an arranged matter. She had had no say in it whatsoever, and neither had he. Yes, she had known him since she was a girl, though he was a distant figure for most of her girlhood until the arrangements for their betrothal had been made, and even still, he seemed distant before their wedding. Over the course of the passed year she had grown to love him indeed, but it was less romantic and more of a practical kind of love. They may have shared a bed, but they had never had the opportunity for a modern romance, instead both being forced into union with one another and having to adapt. However as she saw the helpless body of her infant son before her, she felt a love that was pure of practicality. She had literally made this tiny person who now, only she had the power to truly protect. She wanted to hold him immediately, but neither the midwife nor her mother or mother-in-law would hand him over. That's when she noticed it... the baby wasn't crying – the umbilical cord was wrapped around his tiny neck.
Yôḵāḇeḏ rushed to cut it with a hardened and sharpened piece of dough. Maryām remembered being told that this was the best instrument to use as it would only be used once, preventing further contamination, and being disposed of by way of feeding it to the goats. The room was dead silent as the midwife worked, and those few seconds seemed to be an eternity as her son lay still and lifeless in her arms. Maryām suddenly began to panic. “Cut it, cut it, cut it, cut it! What's taking you so long? Cut it!” She screached. By the time she had enunciated her last word, the cord had been cut, and the midwife immediately began unwrapping it from around the boy's neck.
Around, and around, and around she went. She must have unwound the cord five times before finally letting it drop to the hardened mud floor. Maryām could feel her eyes trying to muster the water for tears, but they had dried up hours ago. She watched helplessly as Yôḵāḇeḏ wiped the boy's face so as to remove any further barriers to breath, though it seemed to make no difference. He wasn't crying, he wasn't even breathing. “What's the matter?” She asked, “Is he alright? Is he breathing? Can you feel him breathing?”
Eight brown eyes stared back at her, the heaviness of their expressions weighing down like the weight of a thousand stones on her chest. She could scarcely breathe herself as her mother-in-law said it, “No.”
As bitter as a young Maryām might have felt toward her mother-in-law however, all of that seemed to dissipate on the day of her labor. It was a cold spring morning, so cold that she had awoken being able to see her own breath. The sound of her husband Yosef at work was what had ended her sleep, as was the norm for her daily routine over the passed three days. Every day it was something different. He might have been fixing something, perhaps a chair or a wheelbarrow, or pounding out fibers for rope, or stripping branches for fencing. Sometimes he and his father Yaqob made finer items, like chairs, tables, and even doors. Others, their wares were crude. Although the overwhelming majority of the time, they repaired things that other people had broken. Today, he was actually outside chopping wood to help in the construction of a neighbor's house, though the upper level of the house where the family was supposed to eat and sleep had become overcrowded with all manner of objects in need of fixing. Her precious mother-in-law could be heard outside grinding wheat between rocks... something Maryām normally helped her do, but was, at least per the woman's insistence, something she was now not able to do.
Not wanting to hear Rāḥēl's incessant complaining about having to grind all the wheat by herself, Maryām, for the first time in days, stepped over a wheel and a stool to get out of bed, and started her way down the latter to the lower level of the house. Her husband immediately noticed, and told her to get back in bed, while Maryām pleaded with him to be quiet. Rāḥēl however, had the ears of a rabbit, and could be heard outside telling her daughter-in-law to get back in bed. “Nothing is going to happen! Please, stop it. I'm just going to come out and help you for awhile.”
“No you are not!” She heard her mother-in-law directly behind her, “Get back into bed, now! I won't hear this nonsense.”
“Mother, please...”
“No!” Rāḥēl hissed, “Get back into bed! I won't have you compromising my grandson for your pride. Go... go on!”
“You don't even know if it's a boy...” Maryām sighed, starting back up the latter.
“Oh I know... believe dear, it's a boy.” Rāḥēl said as she pushed her daughter-in-law up the wooden ladder.
“Indeed.”
“Oh I know. I've been able to accurately predict the sex of babies for years now. With girls you can't expect a belly like that, or the same kind of kicking. Not that girls don't kick. Åsənaṯ kicked me so hard once I had to sit down, and I'm sure you kicked your mother too. But boys... boys keep you up for days at a time, and they always seem to sit in just the wrong place too. You know it's a boy when he gives you that kind of trouble. Everyone knows boys are trouble when they're young. Everyone. But if you can get them to manhood, their demeanor calms down considerably. That's why wars come to an end. If God had made Hawwā before Adam, and tasked her with the responsibilities that he tasked him with... well, there would have been no Qáyin and Hebel, that's for sure.”
What did that even mean? No matter. Rāḥēl was one of the few women in the community that could actually read, and if you let her, which most people did, she could talk for hours. Sometimes Maryām thought it was delightful, seeing her mother-in-law as a role model, and others she couldn't stand it. It depended on the context, but at present, she was doing her best to tune her out until she felt a contraction in her abdomen. She had had contractions the other day that had subsided, which initially gave her pause, but this one was very different. The pain seemed to be shooting down to her thighs.
“Mom, wait...” She said.
“Wait for what, come on now!”
“I feel something.”
“Let me see!” Rāḥēl stuck her head up Maryām's skirt to have a look.
Just as she did, Maryām felt something pop inside her, something that had popped loud enough to be audible to everyone in the house.
“What – ” Yosef was cut off by the sound and sight of what was happening.
Maryām immediately felt a flow coming out from between her legs that was unlike anything she was used to feeling. It wasn't like urinating, because in that case there was some control over it. This was different. This wouldn't stop, even if she wanted it to, and it was accompanied by the painful sensations in her abdomens and thighs that almost made her fall off the ladder, especially when Rāḥēl jerked her head out from beneath her daughter-in-law's skirt to avoid having her head soaked.
“Right. When nobody's here...” She complained, “Yaqob!”
It took a moment for Maryām's father-in-law to make it into the room, but once he did, he found himself being ordered to clear the goats out, bring a clean cloth and help her mother-in-law walk her around the room while Yosef ran outside to fetch his sister, the midwife, and Maryām's mother, who would all make their appearances at different times. Åsənaṯ came first to relieve Yaqob, who promptly made his exit on her arrival. In the presence of childbirth is no place for a man, after all. Åsənaṯ let her mother know that she had dispatched her husband and her brother Qlofa to find Maryām's parents while Yosef found Yôḵāḇeḏ, the midwife. Maryām's mother, Riḇqā, was next to arrive, tears of joy filling her lined eyes for the joyous moment of her first grandchild's birth. After all, Maryām was the last surviving child of her family after her two older brothers had died as children, meaning that she was her parents' only chance at a continuation of their family.
By the time Yôḵāḇeḏ actually made her appearance, the process was half over. Rāḥēl and Riḇqā walked their daughter around the room constantly over the course of the next four hours, stroking her hair and instructing her on her every movement. “I told you that you'd scream.” Rāḥēl whispered to her daughter-in-law, who was forced to laugh before another shot of pain rushed through her body. When the midwife actually arrived, she seemed very nonchalant about her tardiness.
“Nice of you to come.” Rāḥēl said to her when her silhouette appeared in the plaster doorway.
“I'm glad to be here.” Yôḵāḇeḏ said, sternly, “Though it seems you girls have everything under control. Where are we in the process?”
“The baby hasn't begun to crown yet...”
“Let's get that done then...” She rolled her sleeves back, "Shall we move her to the loft? The floor is cleaner, I wager."
"It's also full." Rāḥēl said through tightly clenched teeth.
"Right... oh well. Here is fine." Yôḵāḇeḏ said as she knelt down to lift Maryām's skirt.
Once the baby had actually begun to crown however, Maryām couldn't help but scream the foulest curse words in her vocabulary. She had never felt pain like this before, and she thought that she might be split in two up the middle from it. She was terribly afraid, and the only thing she could think to do once the fear had taken her was call her husband's name. The pain was so intense however that she could barely muster the sounds, instead uttering more a tearful murmur. Her husband was quick to respond, rushing into the room only to be pulled out by his father and pushed by Yôḵāḇeḏ while her mother and mother-in-law gasped at the sight of the curly black hair of their infant grandchild as it slowly began to emerge.
“How do you know which hair is which?” Maryām screamed, only to be laughed at by the other women around her.
What came after the baby's head had crowned however, was no laughing matter. Where the four women helping her with the birthing process had previously been speaking loudly, offering words of encouragement, laughing, and smiling, their demeanor changed at a moment's notice, leaving a 15 year old Maryām confused.
“We have to get it out, quickly.” Yôḵāḇeḏ said quietly before turning her eyes to Maryām's, “I'm going to count with you now, and on the count of three each time I need you to push as hard as you can as fast as you can. Can you do that for me, dear?”
Maryām nodded, and when the time came she did as she was told, and without any further trouble, she felt a release of pressure as she saw her child being pulled from her loins by the midwife's hands. For a moment her mind swam, and a feeling came over her that she had difficulty putting into words. She felt anxious, yet relieved. Disgusted, and yet in awe. The miracle of life lay bare and bloody before her, a tiny helpless bundle of purple flesh gleaming wetly with the fluid of her body. She saw the parts of a boy, and she was filled with joy. She had never felt love like she was feeling now. She could actually say that it was the first time she had ever been in love to begin with. Her marriage to her husband after all had been an arranged matter. She had had no say in it whatsoever, and neither had he. Yes, she had known him since she was a girl, though he was a distant figure for most of her girlhood until the arrangements for their betrothal had been made, and even still, he seemed distant before their wedding. Over the course of the passed year she had grown to love him indeed, but it was less romantic and more of a practical kind of love. They may have shared a bed, but they had never had the opportunity for a modern romance, instead both being forced into union with one another and having to adapt. However as she saw the helpless body of her infant son before her, she felt a love that was pure of practicality. She had literally made this tiny person who now, only she had the power to truly protect. She wanted to hold him immediately, but neither the midwife nor her mother or mother-in-law would hand him over. That's when she noticed it... the baby wasn't crying – the umbilical cord was wrapped around his tiny neck.
Yôḵāḇeḏ rushed to cut it with a hardened and sharpened piece of dough. Maryām remembered being told that this was the best instrument to use as it would only be used once, preventing further contamination, and being disposed of by way of feeding it to the goats. The room was dead silent as the midwife worked, and those few seconds seemed to be an eternity as her son lay still and lifeless in her arms. Maryām suddenly began to panic. “Cut it, cut it, cut it, cut it! What's taking you so long? Cut it!” She screached. By the time she had enunciated her last word, the cord had been cut, and the midwife immediately began unwrapping it from around the boy's neck.
Around, and around, and around she went. She must have unwound the cord five times before finally letting it drop to the hardened mud floor. Maryām could feel her eyes trying to muster the water for tears, but they had dried up hours ago. She watched helplessly as Yôḵāḇeḏ wiped the boy's face so as to remove any further barriers to breath, though it seemed to make no difference. He wasn't crying, he wasn't even breathing. “What's the matter?” She asked, “Is he alright? Is he breathing? Can you feel him breathing?”
Eight brown eyes stared back at her, the heaviness of their expressions weighing down like the weight of a thousand stones on her chest. She could scarcely breathe herself as her mother-in-law said it, “No.”