City of Milan, Milan. 15th of November, 1523.
“Ferdinand!”
He turned at the sound of his name being called, but when he saw who was calling him, Ferdinand shifted on the heels of his feet and turned back to where he was walking, away from the room and away from him.
“Ferdinand!” He heard the other man running to catch him and felt his fingers closing around his wrist, pulling him in his direction. Ferdinand was forcefully turned and saw the face of George Boleyn up close, dark brown curls falling on blue eyes. Full lips. He moved his gaze away. “What was that?”
“What was what?” He shook off George’s hold on him with a flourish and the Duke stepped back, a strange look on his face.
“You’re undermining me, making me look like a fool in front of everyone,” said the Englishman, hurt. “Why?”
Ferdinand shrugged. He remembered his grandfather doing so, whenever someone dared to question him as if saying there was no other way other than his way. When he was a child, Ferdinand thought his namesake was grand, a true King, but he doesn’t feel kingly as George looks at him with a raised eyebrow.
“I don’t know what you are talking about,” he said.
“How can you not?” asked George. “Every idea I have, every thought I share, you disagree with. I cannot say anything without your opposition. Why?”
Ferdinand shrugged again. He felt silly doing it and quickly stopped. His eyes shifted to the end of the corridor, where a servant scurried inside the room, to clean it after everyone left through other doors.
“I will not have this discussion here,” he murmured, turning away.
“Then where?” asked George, pulling at his arm. Ferdinand felt himself being forced into an empty room in the corridor, the Duke of Württemberg closing the door behind him. “Because it’s not just the war meetings. It’s everything, ever since we left Austria. I can’t say or do anything or you’ll make your displeasure about me known. Even in the camps, on the road, when I tried to get close to you, you pulled away. Why is that?”
“I don’t have to agree with everything you say, Your Grace,” said Ferdinand, trying to keep a sense of distance between them. George walked closer and he saw the hurtful look in his eyes, his quivering lower lip.
“You don’t,” he agreed. “But for you to disagree with everything? Well, it is nearly impossible. So tell me? What did I do to make you dislike me so?”
“Don’t be so sensitive, George…” He shook his head.
“No, but you do!” He pointed an accusingly long finger at him, shaking. “You dislike me. You have disliked me since we met. And why? I did nothing to you.”
“Exactly!” said Ferdinand, tired of the subject. “You did nothing. You did nothing and yet you are now the ruler of a large swath of land in Germany. You, who until not too long ago, was merely the son of a knight is now a ruler in the Holy Roman Empire.” He leaned closer and their breaths mingled. “If I disagree with you, it’s because I know you are unworthy of your standing. You are only on the meeting because your sister gave birth to a son for my brother.”
George frowned. “You hate me because I’m the son of a knight?” he asked, shocked. “Are you so…?” Words failed him. “I would have gotten the title even if the Empress produced an infanta, instead of Don Felipe.”
“What makes you think that?” Ferdinand was not so sure of it.
“Because the Emperor’s marriage is not one of equals,” explained George, his cheeks flushed with frustration. “My sister is a knight’s daughter and when the Emperor met her, she was a lady-in-waiting to Queen Catherine. The only way she’d receive a semblance of acceptance by the Cortes is if she was closely related to a ruler of Europe. With my father still in England, that left only me.”
Ferdinand shook his head and words left his lips before he could even think, unable to stop them from spilling out, “And whose fault is that? Your sister and my brother… They never should have gotten married. None of this would be happening if they hadn’t.” When he finished speaking, he raised his eyes. He was slightly shorter than George and the man looked at him, lips slightly parted.
“The Emperor’s marriage is not my fault,” he whispered. “Perhaps things would have been easier, had my sister consented to be Charles’ mistress, instead of his wife, but she didn’t. We can’t think on the past.”
“Thinking about the past is all I can do. The imperial diets were furious with the Emperor’s wedding and it took me weeks to convince them to calm down. And yet…” And yet Charles never thanked me. His brother had a habit of doing that. Never appreciating the things Ferdinand did for him, ever since they met when their grandfather died and Charles first stepped foot in Spain, when he explained to him how to get the Cortes to agree with his demands. “He exiled me from my home, he ignored my advice. He married a nobody from England whereas I had to marry the Hungarian princess he refused. I have done my duty to this family. I have sacrificed everything for the sake of our line! What has he sacrificed? What has he done that he didn’t want to?” When his companion didn’t respond, Ferdinand nodded. “Exactly. Nothing.”
George frowned. “So you’re angry with me because you can’t be angry with your brother?”
“No,” Ferdinand said, stepping back. “I’m not angry with Charles. I can’t be. He is my king and my Emperor and my…” Ferdinand’s words died in his throat as George pulled him close by the hem of his doublet and pressed their mouths together.
His eyes fluttered close on instinct. He felt a large hand going behind his neck, holding him there, and another sliding to his waist. George tried to coax his lips apart, but he was stiff, shocked and surprise running through his veins.
It was very different from kissing Anna. Anna was shorter than him, with soft lips and gentle hands. She didn’t have stubble on her chin or sharp teeth. It is the feeling of said teeth on his lip that forced Ferdinand to wake up.
He pushed George away, his cheeks flushing in embarrassment.
“If you ever do that to me again, I will blind you,” he said. Then he left.