Chapter 155: Reunion
May, 1616
Anna watched as Henry shifted slightly in his chair. It was nice having him here. There had been something missing when he’d been in Richmond without her and the children. She understood it, but at the same time she didn’t. They were family, and surely family had to be together in times like this, when grief was so heavy and when wounds were still raw.
She had given Henry space, but after hearing from Catherine that he’d confessed something to Henry de Vere, Earl of Oxford, she had been desperate. She had wanted to write to him, come home. Come back to her and the children. But she hadn’t, instead she had waited, and now here he was.
He had lost a lot of weight, and his beard had grown thick and bushy. The children had barely recognised him when he’d come for dinner today, but Arthur had been the one to break that barrier running up and squealing in delight. Her heart had warmed to see that.
They’d read to the children before putting them to sleep and now here they were. Their courtiers were scattered around the room, no doubt trying to listen without being caught. An amusing thought if ever there was one.
“I’m sorry.” Henry said then, breaking into her thoughts.
“What for?” Anna asked.
“For not being here.” Henry said, he looked at her, and she saw pain in his eyes. “For not being here for you and for the children. For running away.”
“Henry….” Anna began, Henry hadn’t run away, she wanted him to understand that, but he held up a hand and she fell silent.
“I was scared and angry, scared that you would blame me for not being able to protect our son, and angry that I hadn’t been able to. I needed time to process, and instead I ended up drifting. I got so consumed in my own feelings that I forgot that you were also hurting.” Henry said, he looked at her with a pleading look and spoke. “I’m sorry, my love, I hope you can forgive me.”
Anna got up and moved to Henry, she took his hand in hers and said. “Henry I was never angry at you. I was confused and hurt, but I was never angry at you. I know that everyone grieves in their own way, I just wish that you had told me before. But you’ve told me now and we can work through it together.”
“We can?” Henry asked, with such hope in his voice that Anna felt tears well in her eyes. She blinked them away furiously.
“We can.” Anna said.
Henry pulled her toward him then, so that she was sat in his lap. “Thank you, Anna, you are a far better person than I.”
Anna chuckled and kissed her husband, then whispered. “You know you might want to get rid of the beard.”
“Oh?” Henry replied, his eyes widening. “You don’t like it?”
“It makes you look like one of those ruffians you see sometimes near the theatre.” Anna said. “And not in a good way.”
Henry laughed and touched his cheeks. “I’ll ask David to get me a shaver and I’ll remove it first thing tomorrow.”
“Good.” Anna said.
Both of them fell silent then, just looking at one another. Anna was so happy to have Henry back, so very happy, and of course, she hoped he was happy to be back. She didn’t want to experience anything like what she’d just gone through alone again.
“How…how did you cope?” Henry asked then breaking the silence.
Anna didn’t need to ask what he meant; she knew. “With great difficulty.”
“But the children were here, and there were things that needed to be done. So I powered through.” Anna said, she didn’t mention the hours where she’d just sit and stare at her son’s empty cradle, or that time she forgot to brush Anne’s hair because she was too busy crying her eyes out.
Henry looked at her then and whispered. “I’m sorry.”
Anna cupped her husband’s chin and whispered. “I know.”
Anna didn’t want to think about their grief anymore, she wanted to move forward, therefore she said. “Arthur’s started running around the palace like a mad man.”
Henry laughed. “How do you mean?”
“He takes his wooden practice sword and runs around with it, challenging anyone and everyone to a duel. A few times some of the guards have indulged him, but other than he just runs around. It’s good because usually it exhausts him.” Anna said.
Henry laughed. “I’ll need to see what he can do with that sword then.”
“Yes, you will.” Anna said, shifting slightly and feeling Henry’s body respond accordingly. She looked at him and he looked at her, she grinned and he smirked.
“There are a lot of people around.” He whispered.
“So, let’s get rid of them.” Anna said.
“We can’t, not yet. Protocol.” Henry said.
Anna groaned. “Protocol, but we’re not at court.”
Henry laughed. “True, but some of these people are going to be reporting back to my father, and we can’t have them saying something scandalous, can we?”
Anna giggled into Henry’s neck. “No, we really can’t.”
A moment passed and then another, then another, then Henry surprised her by picking her up. “What about protocol?” Anna asked.
“Bugger protocol, I haven’t seen you in months. I want to be with my wife.” Henry replied, looking at her rather wolfishly. He stood up and walked passed most of their courtiers and kicked open the door that led toward the hallway, he then walked down that hallway, all the while staring at her with such heat that her insides were warming.
Eventually they got to his bedchamber. The guards opened the doors and he kicked the door shut after he’d walked in. He gently placed her on the bed, and then said. “I’ve missed you.”
“I’ve missed you.” Anna replied. She pulled him toward her and kissed him then, then pushed him slightly. “Take it off.” She said nodding to his clothes.
Henry grinned. “Yes, my Princess.”