First the apology. I am sorry I dropped out of sight so suddenly and with no coherent explanation.
Next the explanation I owe
About 25 years ago, as our family was preparing for a holiday trip, I found I could not properly focus my eyesight. A quick visit to our doctor discovered that the muscles around my right eye were failing to function on command. Within a day or two the whole of one side of my face lost feeling and became effectively paralysed .. eye, ear, cheek, lips, tongue ... the whole kit and caboodle.
Since I had not suffered any physical trauma, the tentative diagnosis was an infection in my facial and cranial nerves blocking the control impulses probably through inflammation of the surrounding tissue. Not life-threatening of course, not even terribly painful most of the time, just a bloody nuisance (though my girls thought the eyepatch I wore to protect an eye that would not shut quite piratical
)
I was given various anti-inflammatory pills that seemed to halt the progression but was told only time would tell if the substantial effects would fade. Fortunately, over about a year the paralysis went, leaving only some numbness, slightly impaired binaural hearing and a few problems with speech formation.
So far so
meeh . I was told that these problems were rare but if they went away at all, they very rarely recurred.
For twenty years that held true but about three years ago the same symptoms began to appear again. Not as severe and mostly stopped in its advance each time by the same kind of anti-inflammatory medication but repeatedly in waves every two or three months. The attacks can now be on both sides of my face, even together at times. It seems probable the bug was a virus and has acted a bit like
shingles and taken up long term residence. It is now unlikely to be shifted.
In normal life, the effects are mostly almost imperceptible but when active, boy do they bollix up my hand-eye coordination and concentration. Which is a real bother, since I both earn my living and get a lot of enjoyment at the keyboard and screen.
I try to tell myself to simply forge through doing the best I can, accepting that each day will be different. But the damn bug
has got into my head in more ways than one and as the
Little Corporal has it "The moral to the physical is as three to one" (Even a psychopath can be right some times)
I admit it ... just recently when on a downswing I threw my toys out of the pram in a paddy.
Apologies, shipmates.
And finally the resolve.
I am definitely going to continue the D-E Saga at the best pace I can
(and hopefully, resume participating actively in all the other excellent threads that I enjoy too)
See you soon (Next two episodes are being proofread this week)