Solemn bells were tolling, marking the gravity of the occasion; telling London that, on this day a year ago, England’s beloved Queen Katherine had died in childbirth and, along with her stillborn son, been taken up to meet her Maker in Heaven.
Closeted in the relative privacy of the Chapel Royal at Greenwich, Henry heard them tolling and felt his grief welling up afresh. It might have been a year, but today, the wound still felt as raw and vulnerable as that very first day, the day Dr Linacre had come out of Cata’s lying-in chamber with his eyes so grave and his voice so heavy.
Giving in to his pain, Henry sank to his knees, sensing the entire Court do the same behind him. His younger sister, so recently returned to Court from her confinement and her trip to Suffolk, slid her hand daringly into his, vainly trying to offer some comfort as Archbishop Warham started the Mass, “In nomine Patris, Filli et Spiritus Sancti…”
Henry echoed his words automatically, fighting the urge to turn and seek solace in his sister’s grieving eyes. Or in those of her confidante, Mistress Marie. The one who had played Gentleness in that masque a few weeks ago. She had been everywhere Henry turned in the days since then, and although he usually hated feeling pressed in by anyone, he couldn’t feel that way about Mistress Marie. He couldn’t. She was too quiet and gentle to make anyone angry at her for anything. One could even say that she embodied Gentleness.
Suddenly, Henry shook his head. What was he doing? This was no way to be thinking, not at Cata’s memorial service. Today, today of all days, ought to be her day! Her day and no one else’s!
Angry at himself now, Henry determinedly pushed away the thoughts that were betraying Cata’s memory and forced himself to pay attention to the service.
*** *** ***
Far away, in Eltham’s own little chapel, the three year old Princess Mary also knelt before the altar, praying for her mother. Unlike her father, however, she wasn’t using the Latin condoned by His Holiness. She was using her own words.
“Dear God, please. Please. Give Mama back. Give Mama back and I be good, I promise.”
A hand touched her shoulder, “Come, Your Highness. You’ve prayed enough. The Lord will have heard your prayers by now. It’s time for you to eat.”
Mary flinched away, “No! No!,” she whispered, careful to keep her voice low, as everyone had to do in church. She couldn’t go now. She couldn’t! She was just asking God for the most important thing, to give them her Mama back, so that Papa would be happy again and she could be his Princess again. His pearl again. Or to give her a Mama, at least.
But Lady Bury was spoiling it all. She kept disturbing Mary and now God would never hear her. It wasn’t fair! Mary hadn’t disturbed Lady Bury when she was praying. She hadn’t! So why did Lady Bury do it, when she always told Mary that interrupting was rude? Mary was the Princess, after all.
Lady Bury’s voice came again, “Come, Princess Mary.”
Mary pulled away, wishing she could tell Lady Bury to go away. Then somewhere, as if in answer to her prayer, came a faint memory of Papa shouting at someone because they hadn’t done what they were told. She couldn’t shout, of course, not in church, but she could make her voice angry like his.
“I say no, Lady Bury. Leave.”
Her governess’s hand left her shoulder and Mary couldn’t help turning to see how she had reacted. The woman had fallen back a step or two, surprised at the testiness in her charge’s voice.
“Leave,” Mary repeated, smiling inside as she watched her governess nod slowly, beckon the other ladies and leave the chapel. She felt proud of herself for finally managing to remind them who was the Princess and who had to do what they were told.
But pride wasn’t allowed, it wasn’t nice, and God would never hear her prayers if she wasn’t nice, so Mary felt guilty. Kneeling back down, she let her lips move almost soundlessly, whispering, “I’m sorry, but please. Let Lady Bury realise she not Mama. That she no tell me what I do. And please, help Papa be happy again. Help him find new Mama for me, so he happy and love me like used to.”
Mary begged the Lord under her breath, hoping against hope that God had heard her. Hoping against hope that she’d have a new Mama soon.